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FUCK. Why is it that i keep wanting to go to the page? Why is it that i'm still not over it yet? I'm so angry with myself. I hate myself. Why is it that my mind is alr telling my heart that he's a bloody bastard and jerk, his fk-ing lies and actions are nt worth it, but my heart just wont listen and get over it? WHY?!!?! Why the fuck am i still crying over some asshole? TEARS! STOP! Why is it that i want to act like a stranger the next time i see him, i want to scold him in the face, but my heart keep losing to it? Why is my heart losing to my mind? Why the fuck must it be me? Why cant it be someone else? Why must you bloody barge in, and spoil what made me happy? Who the fk are you?!

Last week when i discovered some things, i told myself yea that's enough to convince me that i was being played alr. But then i started telling myself, i dont have the evidence yet. And god seems to know what i'm thinking, and lay all the evidence out before me. Are you trying to help me? Am i supposed to thank you? Yes now my mind is telling my heart, yes god wants you to get over this. He's helping you wake up and stop deceiving yourself. But seriously, why must it be me?! What did i do wrong to be treated like this?!

Everyone says i'm dumb. Yes i'm dumb, i know. No one can be more stupid than me. NO ONE. Saving up all the money wanting to get some jerk who just cheated on me something really good. Something i've nv even given to my best friend, or my parents. How stupid can i get?

Why is it that you can get away with things when you are in the wrong? Not once but twice. Will there really be karma? Why do i seem to be the one being punished? Why is it that you dont even feel guilty? Was your initial motive to play? Have i been alr cheated from the start? You see i can be saying all these now. But what i'm feeling now is if one day he comes back and just one word, just one apology and i can forgive him. Like WTH. Someone just kill me. Actually my heart says i dont hate you, i hate the girl. For coming in between.

This is my first r/s. I've always wanted love. I place love in front of every single thing in my life. And then this is what i got. First r/s, being played, being cheated, being lied to. What can be worse? Really someone, just tell me, wtf did i do wrong? Why am i the one suffering?

Sorry friends, i know this is getting really irritating. I've been saying that yes i've gotten over it. But yet everytime I've not. I dont know how long this will take. I really dont know. I'm seriously gng crazy alr. My mind isnt convincing my heart at all. They are totally 2 different bodies now. All those suppressed feelings are killing me.