This whole week had been hectic. Couldnt even find the time to breathe. I did not regret skipping my lecture this morning. Cause if i'd went, i dont think i'll be sitting here typing all these now. Hahas. Whatever it is, hectic days are over, next comes exams. I hope i survive.

I dont know why but this thought have been in my mind recently. I keep thinking one day if i leave this world, how many people will grieve? I dont have much close friends in life, so yea just a thought. Lols.

I realised that when someone ask you for advice, they've actually made a decision alr. They just trying to find someone who agrees with what they've decided. To give them the cue that yes that's the right thing to do. Any other advice doesnt matter as they will all be rejected. So yea, we cant help others make a decision, no matter how much advice we give they'll still make the decision in the end. The important thing is that no one is responsible for the consequences of that decision but the decision maker himself/herself. The most others can tell you is not to regret.

Is it good to think of the ending of something even before it starts? Although i am someone who believes that if you want to do something, just go ahead and do it, I do see the good point of thinking of the consequences if it doesnt turn out well. Maybe it'll save us some hurt, maybe it'll save us some regret. But oh wells, we only have one life, so why think so much? My way of doing things is to go with my own intuition. It does turn out to be the wrong decision at times, but doing it this way saved me alot of brain cells. Hahas.

I dont know if i have been deceiving myself and i wont know until i find out the answers to all my doubts. I've been convincing myself to accept this reason, but sometimes i wonder if it's true. When i think of other reasons, it gets my blood pressure high and i get kind of pissed. Idk, maybe it's true what others say, you just want it to reflect good on you.

I'm gonna smile cause i totally deserve to.