Just got back from my dental appt. As usual i was late. Woke up and realised that i have to leave hse in 15 mins time. Sighs. I think my body have some kind of auto alarm that set to make me oversleep everytime i have a dental appt. Body ar, do you hate dental appts so much? Today was the last appt though. The person at the reception used a word that i think was weird. She said 'you're discharged'. Make me sound like a hospital patient, which i was. But well. Hahahas. Anyways, yes i dont really like dental appts, cause i'd come back reeking of the typical dental clinic smell. ):

Those thoughts are back again. Haunting me once more. And they got me thinking and i realised that i dont really know myself. I dont know how i feel about all these. Hard to put into words. I dont know am i angry or am i still sad. My mind and heart seems to be having this battle. You know there are times when there's so many inner voices inside you. I can tell you that it doesnt bother me anymore, but actually deep inside i dont really know if it still bothers me. Actually it still does i think. Who wont if you're in this kind of situation? There were so many questions that i'd wanted them to be answered. Then there was this time when i thought the answers to these questions doesnt matter anymore. Now i have new questions. There's just so many things that i dont understand. Are you trying to tell me something? Am i supposed to get some hints? Do you think that i'm still trying? Do you think that i'm still holding on to some things? Are you still avoiding? Should i act like i dont care? IDK IDK IDK. I always feel so tired after all these thoughts. I didnt want them to come, neither do i try to forget them on purpose. Ayes, someone lead me please.

I'm still thinking if i should like publicise my blog or something. Like making more people know of my blog. Actually i think the only ppl reading are se and chel only. Hahahas. But sometimes i write things that i dont really want others to know. And sometimes i dont think you guys understand what i'm writing about too. Hahahas. Hmms. Dont know lehs.

Should i go back to sleep again? I seriously seriously think that i havent been catching any sleep recently. Everytime i'm dreaming. Arghs.