Sighs, i am so disappointed in myself. I thought i did quite an okay job. I've nv expected this return. Now i feel so lousy. While preparing for my next assignment, this thought just keep coming back. I put in so much effort. But in return, i get lousy grades. It makes me think, makes me think that no matter how much effort i put it, it wont be of use. Yet on the other hand, those lousy grades have given me a motivating push to start on my assignment. Idk, this is such a contradicting feeling.

And now for my assignment, i dont want to do something that everyone is doing. And what's left are the weird ones. Interesting but yea, hard to find. Maybe i'll go bury myself within books tmr to see if i can find some golden information.

I've really wanted to get away from all these and really be free. I want a break. I'd left my weekend free to be able to spend some family time. But what did i get in return? Damn, i'm becoming depressed. Maybe before all these projects die, i'll die first.

And i'm beginning to doubt if i can go into a local university. And i dont think i'll be able to afford studying overseas. So how? Where do you think a freaking diploma can get me to? Hell.

Online project discussion sucks.

Bored! My holidays are so shitty. With all these projects and assignments. Arghs! Everyday is filled.

Work today. Now my back is aching. I dont feel like doing any of the project things. Once i open the file, i feel like off-ing the comp. Lols. I shall read my magazine!

I have a sudden obsession for heels but no money! ): This week is gng to burn a big big hole in my pocket with all the dinners! Oh man! ):

I'm here again! Wanted to wake up at 8am to get down with my projects. And and and guess what? I think you guessed it right! I woke up only near 12 noon! Hahahahas! BUT, i completed my Fest paragraph! One more thing on the to-do list down! Yoohooo! Next i've to do my club paragraph, collate club report, and fest report, do my CSIT individual, study for my club test! Oh man. Oh and improve on my Culture paragraph and TTB! Oh shucks, the more i think, the more there is! Sighs. But the load is getting lighter! Yes it is!

Now my butt is stuck to this chair and my back is aching. Wanted to go JP with my mum today de. But apparently she wants to go to grandma's hse and bring my sis go cut hair. SIGHSSS. Half of a sunday is gone, gone, gone! And soon holidays' gng to be over. ):

oO and my madwoman is back from KOREA!!!! ;D

This is how i'm like now. Like in a cage. A nicer word for prison. Hahahahas! And it's 2am now. I've so so so many things undone. But the feeling if getting one thing done after another is good! Like the weight in your heart, eh no brain in this case, gets lighter everytime. But feeling v tired eh. I want to play play play!

Anyway, slept at 4am ytd night and woke up at 9. Was supposed to wake up at 8am to get to wy's hse at 9am to take photos for my collection. But obviously and as predicted, i overslept. Lols. So yea, 9am. Reached at ard 10am. As predicted, sh was still asleep when i called her. Hahahas. But anyway, thanks so much to the 2 of you! For waking up so so early and for lending me the place to take the photos. And to help me take as well! Love you 2 to bits! :D

Today was quite a crazy day. When i got home from wy's, had to edit the photos for the launch. Just when i on-ed my comp, a customer i was supposed to meet told me she was reaching, so went out to meet her. Then came back and rushed all those photos. After that, rushed out again to meet sh agn to accompany her to the flea market at sculpture square. It was quite boring as most of them were selling 2nd hand stuff. Nothing appealing to me. So after ard 1 hour, came back home, put down my bag and went out for dinner and went to the temple. And till now. Haahahas. Phew. The whole day seems like a bullet train. Zooming from 1 place to another. Thankfully it's over. Now it's gng to be a whole new day again. JIAYOU to myself! IT WILL BE OVER SOON! EVERYTHING! :D

AND MISS NG SINEE, PLEASE DO NOT DIGRESS ANYMORE. YOU HAVE NO TIME! WE HAVE NO TIME! GET YOUR BUTT STUCK TO THE CHAIR, HANDS ON UR KEYBOARD AND MOUSE AND START WITH YOUR PROJECTS AND ASSIGNMENTS! SEE, I'M MOTIVATING YOU! YOUYOUYOU! LOLS!

CRAPOLA! I was supposed to wake up at 6am ytd morning to do my proj stuff and i woke up only at 10am! And that was the time i've to leave hse! And then i was late for CYA for 3 freaking minutes and got fined by 1 dollar! And i reached airport at 5.30 lehs! Just tt the officer at the airport pass place ignored me lor! So i reached the CYA room only at 5.33. NVM. Anw, nicky waited for me so she kena fined as well.

And this morning i was supposed to wake up at 6am to do my work again. I did wake up at 6am. BUT, feeling too tired, i went back to slp and said i'd wake up at 7. And i happened to get so cozy underneath my blanket and slept till 9am. :D And now that i'm wide awake, i cant find any motivation to start! My fingers keep having the urge to surf the net! Motivation, whr are you!!!! Come out now! I say now! RAH!

Oh yes and now my itunes is playing the song by Jesse McCartney with the lyrics dont stress dont stress dont stress. And now these words are filling up Mr Brain. Now how am i gng to concentrate? Hmms. Trying really hard to read the researches. Lols.

Helloooo!
It's now 2am and i'm supposed to be in dreamland. But have the sudden urge to blog while waiting for my nails to dry. Hahahas! Everyday of my holidays is so fully packed. I hope i have 1 day that i can actually stay at home! Oh btw i painted my nails a pinkish red! Did i mention that i love red before? Hahahas, anw it doesnt hurt mentioning it again right? Lols. I LOVE RED! :D I wore my Fox red top today and my Lacoste red shoe out today! Getting in the Christmas mood! Hee! :D My friend was saying that i'll blend with the candy canes decorations at orchard! Hahahas, indeed i did! And i think Fox should make their clothes smaller can? Their petite is still big lar! I kept pulling the top the whole day!

Met up with my primary school khakis today! I'm trying to make use of this holiday to actually meet up as many friends as i can. Tmr will be Jovin's turn! Hahahas! Had been postponing her bdae celebration time and again till no one else can make it alr. Sighs. But still i'm sure we're gng to enjoy tmr! Hee. Back to my primary school khakis. Oh, had proj meeting in the morning from 9am till 12 plus. Then took bus tgt with kimbo to town. After tt, i went to shop alone while waiting for WY. It was too early so most of the shops at FEP werent opened yet. Was looking for S's present. Hadnt had the time to go do a proper shopping! And yes i'm finally meeting her nxt week after dont know how many donkey years! Hahahas. Even our mums are nagging! Lots to catch up about! Aiya, why i keep digressing ar?

Back back. Ohh i was actually only supposed to meet WY at 5 plus but didnt expect my proj meeting to end so early, and i didnt wanted to go home, so i pulled her out of the house to join me for shopping. Ended up she bought quite a few things! Shoes, nail polish. Not a lot lar! But she kept blaming me for causing her to spend so much! Lols. I didnt force you! I bought a pair of heels from C&K! I love the one from Mondo as well but the dumb ribbon spoils the whole thing! Arghs. Gonna get my sis to go see if she can wear, if she can i gng to get her to share with me! Hahahas! Good idea right? Oh yea, i suggested for Miss WY and SH to pay half of the price of the heels since they said they havent bought me my bdae present! Hahahas or you guys can like choose to accumulate it till nxt yr and just buy me a car! Hahahas! Lexus GS300 okay? Lols!

I'm looking forward to my Manhattan's lunch tmr! :D Money flies out of my pocket very quickly. I ought to save alr. After looking at my dad's money, I feel that there's a need to save real bad. Alrights, let tmr be the last good meal! Then i'll go budget! Still need to save for next thurs' Christmas dinner! Sighs, please remind me not to spend on useless things alr alrights? Please constantly remind me that i need to save for the sake of my HK trip nxt year and for the sake of my whole family.

I suddenly realise that the fact that the poor will always remain poor and the rich will just get richer may be true to a certain extent. Maybe, just maybe, i'll prove it wrong.


What's the point of searching anymore when i alr know what the ending will be like?
It's been a good 5 months. Almost half a year. And it still feels so recent to me. Damn.

1 week of holiday is gone, or maybe 3 days. Still it's fast. There's like a truckload of, eh no, trucksload of things to be done before school reopen. Aww, this holiday is so long, not! ):

I really want to enjoy my holidaysssss. And and everyone's overseas now! ):

It's such a sad thing that everyone is pushing the responsibility of taking care of their parents. Sad thing, i wont want my children to treat me like that when i'm old and sick. I hate gng to the hospital. I really salute all the nurses and doctors there. More to the nurses. Their job is really wow. Having to face all the sick and weak everyday is really a mental torture. I cant even stand 1 hour there. And i think i happened to see the dead person today. Gosh.

And i think i'm not really sound. I've been forgetting things really badly recently. One good example is i was looking through my bag after leaving grandma's hse and i couldnt find my storybook. I rmbed that i placed it on the table. So i thought i left it there and forgot to take it along with me when i left. So after leaving the hospital, my dad drove me all the way back to get it. Just when i was in the lift on the way up, i looked inside my bag and there it was! The storybook was in my bag all along! Arghs. Wth am i thinking!

Oh managed to get the whole new collection of the-taitais up within one day! And i think that explains my swollen eye again. Hahahas. Or maybe it's my mascara. It was left to rot for a few months alr! Anyway i've chuck it away and got a new one! The new maybelline one. The old one kind of dried up.

I've found more reasons to stick to that decision. My results are on stake so i'm not taking the risk. And the support from the others that i get is going to be what's going to keep me strong. Thanks girls. Now there seems to be some war.

Talking about war, my room is now a warzone. Hahahaas. Serious. I need more shelves, boxes, maybe a bigger wardrobe. No, maybe a walk in one. Hahahas. Yea gimme the money and space!

Okay shall end off with sth cheerful okay? If not it's gng to be such a gloomy post again. Lols.

Sighs... I am evil. I dont know what to do. I dont feel like giving it up to you. I dont want to take the risk. I know you want. I know you're keen. But everyone just cant catch up with you. Arghs. Okay whatever.

I'm alr looking forward to my HK trip!!!!! I just hope that it doesnt get cancelled last minute like everytime an overseas trip is planned. Alrights!!!

Okay, i'm in no mood for anything. I shall just go and sleep.

Yoohoo!!! Acct mid sem is over!!! Till now, which is 9 hours after the test has ended, i still cannot believe that i actually forgot to do one question in the test. So dumb lar. And it's not as if i dont know how to do that question. Arghs! This is so frustrating!

Anyway, I'm gng to have a miserable holiday! Because, right when school reopen, i'll be bombarded by deadlines and tests. This semester = tests ->projects ->test ->projects ->presentations ->exams ->end. Tell me how worse can this get please. Arghs, damn! Rah!!!

And now my whole brain is filled with the song womanizer. All because of NGSINEE! Tsk!

Project meetings for the rest of the week. Yoohoo, tell me how to turn them into things to look forward to! I want to go on holidays overseas!!! Can i???

Ahh, sometimes i feel so evil. Lols.

Can i tell you that i think you're cute? Hahahahhaas!!! Ignore this.

Many of the old sayings seem true. Used to think that they are just some dumb things that our parents or teachers say to like make us dont do certain things or what. But now, i think most of them make sense. 2 i can think of is dont judge a book by its cover and if u dont listen to what the elderly says, you'll regret or sth? Yea, so nxt time if someone says this to you, heed their advice. Hahahas. I think that everyone has a side of them that only a few or no one knows about. Okay whatever, idk what i'm talking about.

I've been feeling so down recently. I keep thinking why am i not putting in any effort despite the fact that i keep telling myself that i've got to conc on my studies and really get good grades. I feel so dumb and useless when i cant seem to understand sth. Sighs. I kind of get competitive and will tend to compare my own performance with others. Then that's what's really making me feel this way.

Oh wells, this is such a depressing post. Ha.

I hate you but i love you.

FINALLY FINALLY i'm done with my CSIT assignment. It was really a big headache. Arghs. So now presenting to you my horrible storyboard! Hahahahas! I got so frustrated drawing it and seriously i dont know what i'm doing. So just hope that this goes through well. It's quite a last minute thing. And this storyboard cause my hand to be a colourful hand. But in the picture, it kind of looks like a rotten hand. Hahahas! Ayes, but anw, the first part of individual assignments are over! 2 more to go! And now it's gng to be time for intensive projects. What a sad life. Sighs.