Sighs, i am so disappointed in myself. I thought i did quite an okay job. I've nv expected this return. Now i feel so lousy. While preparing for my next assignment, this thought just keep coming back. I put in so much effort. But in return, i get lousy grades. It makes me think, makes me think that no matter how much effort i put it, it wont be of use. Yet on the other hand, those lousy grades have given me a motivating push to start on my assignment. Idk, this is such a contradicting feeling.

And now for my assignment, i dont want to do something that everyone is doing. And what's left are the weird ones. Interesting but yea, hard to find. Maybe i'll go bury myself within books tmr to see if i can find some golden information.

I've really wanted to get away from all these and really be free. I want a break. I'd left my weekend free to be able to spend some family time. But what did i get in return? Damn, i'm becoming depressed. Maybe before all these projects die, i'll die first.

And i'm beginning to doubt if i can go into a local university. And i dont think i'll be able to afford studying overseas. So how? Where do you think a freaking diploma can get me to? Hell.