I am finally finished with my nutrition revision. I hope the information i read retains in my brain till after the paper tmr. Hahahas. Oh my. MICE today totally drained all my brain cells and energy to study. The paper was err, unexpected. Hahahas. Not sure how well i will do in it. Hope tmr's will be good.

Anyway responses are finally pouring in for my internship. But it lands me in a dilemma as to which one to choose. Right now i have a travel agency interview and i am alr accepted by a country club without the need to interview.

My choices are wait for the one which is my first choice to conduct an interview and go for it. This can only be carried out if i am very confident that i will confirm get the place and it's one pathetic vacancy.

Next is to just take the country club which was my second choice. And also i will have a companion. And also i like the training programme.

Finally it's to go for the interview for travel agency and see if i end up there. But it's not something that i want. But still i will go for the interview as it is alr arranged.

Oh and there's one more choice cause there's one more place i want to go. But the training programme is more or less the same as the country club which has alr accepted me. Except that it is more prestigious. Hahahas. But the area is inaccessible lehs. Although quite near to my hse.

I have to make a decision by 10am. This is tough. But i have great temptation to accept the country club. Good idea or not?

Ive been trying to sleep earlier these days so that i can cure my unsightly dark eye circles. So i'm gng to go sleep like after i type out this post.

Had my first driving lesson today! Fun is the only word to describe the lesson! I like driving man. Hahahas. And and i am so freaking short that i need to pull the seat to the max to reach the correct level in order to step on the pedals. Hahahas! Omg, i srsly didnt know i was THAT short. Basically today was listening to the instructor's command and just following blindly. Hahahas. And amazingly, i didnt stall the car! :D Daddy say i even more pro than my bro. YAYEEE. Hahahas! Eh but then some of the things my instructor say i dont uds ar, then i dont know when can i stop stepping on the clutch and all. Hahahas. But no fear, i have a pro driver to ask at home. Hahahhas! Ahh, okay okay, i shall stop talking about my lesson. I'm excited for the next lesson though, but i dont know when. Hahahas!

Okay, i am not sure if i can handle MICE tmr. I sure hope i can. I am gng to wake up at 4am to study agn.

Anw, today's F&B was erm, i dont know how to describe it. But i think i was unlucky to get paper 3. ): The questions were so weird can. ): Just hope that my crap can still get me an A? Hahahas.

So goodnight! :D Ciao!

Feeling disgusted. But it's about time to stop letting all these things bother me anymore. Yes if only they can stop.

I realised that everytime i reach a down point of my life, like an obstacle or something, i'll be worried, scared, sad or whatever it is at first. But then i'll slowly convince myself, constantly telling myself that this is just the beginning. If i perservere, i'll get good endings. So i truly hope that this will be the case everytime. :D Yeps, to all my friends out there who are facing the same thing as me, you all can try telling yourselves this! Hahahas!

And so, i didnt study today, kept reading my storybook and watching videos, and sleeping a few minutes after waking up and gng to my grandma's for dumplings. Reminds me of last yr, when we were at Chinatown dng volunteer work, wrapping dumplings for charity. Hahahas. It was a fun experience. Btw, i finished ANTM Cycle 12! I wanted Allison to win. ): Her runway walk was so amazing as compared to her first one!

Having a really bad headache now. ):

Anw! Who wants to watch Night at the Museum 2 with me???? I know SE u wont be watching w me, so who wants to watch with meeee!!! C'mon, volunteer yourselves, i know you all want to! Hahahahas! :D

HOHO! I've just finished writing out a whole new resume! Which i think it's much better than the previous one! I seriously hope so. Praying hard! The only other company that i want to send out to is CX. But i heard competition is super strong. :/ Now that i reread my previous cover letters written, i realised mistakes. ): Maybe those employers found out and dont want me. I srsly hope i can at least clinch someeee!

Hearing more and more people getting their placements just makes me more and more worried. Maybe i should call some companies up soon.

Are there still alot of people without placements?

Oh and i was so engrossed in doing the resume till i didnt even notice the time! My goodness, it's alr 2.30am! Time to sleep! Tmr shall be a day for studying! I am determined to get my grades up this semester! Yes i cannn! :D

Omg, i think i am deeply traumatised these days. Just ytd, 2 weird cheena men made me so freaking scared. And today i received a call from another weird man who claimed to be my ex-boss. Oh myy.

Okay first the 2 cheena men. I just got back from school and was walking up to the lift from the LRT station. These 2 cheena men were in front of me, but then they suddenly turned back and saw me and they stopped walking. So i just walked past them. But they started walking behind me after that! Like wthh??? Then i was at the lift landing waiting for the lift. They werent here yet, but then they suddenly run to the lift there, seem to fear that they wont be able to catch the lift. That was when my suspicion rose. I was thinking whether to walk off or not. But thinking that it'll be damn weird cause i was there first, so i just went into the lift with them. I let them go into the lift first so that they can press their lvl first. They went in and stood there, and then one of them asked me which floor. So i just said 10, and then they thought for a while before pressing 7. Like so weird la! As if they dont even know which floor they gng to. My heart was like pounding like mad and i was hoping that the lift would go at lightning speed. Luckily nothing happened and they went out at lvl 7. Damn scary.

And then today, i received this missed call from this unknown number, having the hope that it may be from some SIP company, i called back and asked who called. And then it was a man. Saying that he was sam. The only sam i know was my ex-boss who ran away with my pay. And this man at the other end was damn weird. He asked like if i was free tonight and asked to meet. Thinking that he may be wanting to like pass me the pay or sth, i just say ya free. But then the conversation went more and more weird. With him asking oh i can meet him till what time. And he asked if i can meet him today and go home tmr. LIKE WTHH??? Sounds like some psychopath can. Then i was like who are you?? You sound weird. And he was like you talked to me for so long and you dont know who am i? So freaking weird la. After the call, i called up my supervisor and asked if he had contacted her as well. But she say no. And i told her the whole thing and she said the man very weird and she dont think it's sam. Yea, i dont think so too. Although the voice do sound like his.

Anyway, bottom line is i am very very very traumatised. =/

Hoho! I guess i havent been here for quite a while! What have i been busy with? I think my life has been pretty stale recently. It's school, project, home, sleep, school, project, home, sleep. Adding eating in between. Boring? Yes absolutely! Like arghs! Mad boring. ):

Went out with dumbdumb em ytd for adidias sale at Raffles City. It was so small and disappointing. Oh and i think many stores have started GSS earlier. Everywhere is having sales. So tempting. Oh and what's more, is that many stores have like extra privileges for UOB card! Totally adds on to the temptation. Hahahas, but guess what, normally the sales stuff are not that nice compared to the regular priced one. Hahahas. Ahh, and that's not good!

Let's see, i bought a TS polo the other day, 19.90, cheap cheap for TS! Then i bought a book just nw, 20 plus, oh and also some body shop stuff, totaling up to 36 plus. Oh man, money is so easy to spend yet so hard-earned. ): Oh and i am planning to get the body shop mineral powder as well, 42.90. Anyone use before? Any opinions on it? I wanted to buy Elizabeth Arden one, but when i went to Robinsons at Raffles City ytd, the customers at the EA counter are mostly people of higher age, so i guess they're not really targeting young skins like mine. Hahahas. Oh my oh my, and the BS brushes are darn ex can. ):

See see sale makes us spend more. BAD.

Didnt school today, decided to skip the F&B lect. Planned to do URA ytd night, but totally crashed after reaching home. So woke up earlier this morning to do and i actually finished it by like 5 plus and got maddy to hand in for me! Thank you maddy! :D And then went to book for FTT. 1st July.

Okay i shall go and i dont know do what. Will do whatever comes to mind. Hahahas.

Updated at 1am - I have just finish digesting the URA annual report and it's amazing how they actually plan for each and every part of Singapore. And looking at the future developments make me just dont want the world to end in 2012. Hahahahas! Singapore having an iconic skyline. Whoo!

Ive decided to start on my URA report after much nagging from jasmine. Hahahas. So yes, i shall start URA report. Anyway i concluded that Facebook is the root of all evils. Hahahas, it just make ppl procrasinate what they are supposed to do. Dont you all agree with me???? Yes you all do, dont lie.

Oh btw i wanted to mention that i came home the other day and saw a packet of broad beans in the kitchen, alr half eaten. So i took it and then ate. It was so addictive that i almost finished the whole packet. When i finally stopped, there was only like a few more left. And when my mum saw me holding that packet, she exclaimed, you finished my nuts ar?!?! I was still thinking of eating it after dinner de lehs. And i was like still got still got. Hahahas. And guess what, the next day, when i got home, i saw that in the kitchen, there was 4 whole new packets of nuts. All kind of nuts. HAHAHAS. My mum is so crazy over nuts sia. I think my mum and dad went to NTUC and grabbed one packet of each type of nuts la. Hahahas. I am gng to get nuts overdose. LOLS.


I'm finally back with piccass! My camera has been on leave for quite long. Now it's finally back to work! So i brought it to Ulu Land Haw Par Villa! Hahahahas. Rmb in all your younger days we'll all go there on family day? And you'll just have at least one picture taken there when you're a toddler. Okay those who're not in HTM may be wondering why we suddenly go to that ulu land. It's because we're having site recee for our project. Oh i think i mentioned it in the earlier posts.

The place is still more or less the same. Just older. And with lesser crowd. Much lesser.









This was taken yesterday in the comp lab. Is it that there're really limited resources in Business school comp labs? Er, actually no, they just insisted on squeezing on a chair. Poor chair, i pity you. HAHAHAS!

And this. See the CHIJ ppl are like nuns. Hahahas. Coming down from a hill. HAHAHAHAHAS! Su say her teacher told her they very inward and not to talk to them. LOLS. Omg, damn funny. Sry, i just dont like them. Hahahahas. No offence if any of you are from there ar.

Hokay, went for a movie to er, get out of our depressed lives for a moment. Angels and demons. I fell asleep at the front part of the movie. It was quite a good and chim movie. I fell asleep cause i was just too tired. Hahahas. But the plot was quite predictable. Hmms.

Anw, i finally got replies for like SIP. But none for interviews yet. Fri, a tutor asked the class who got interviews alr and who hasnt. And it's really scary to know that majority of the class got an interview or more alr. Srsly. No one can understand this fear except for those who's got their places secured.

I think i should just stop procrasinating. I've just officially wasted one day of my precious weekend again.

Ohoh, did i mention that me and SE had a good and freaking filling dinner ytd? Went cartel. We'd always come out of that place feeling really horrible. Hahahas. I didnt like the pasta i got so i ate half of SE's. Hahahas. And we had chicken wings, and frappes. And bread. Totally cant stand up straight aft that. Hahahas.

And i'm having my first driving lesson in a week or so. Excited! :D

Ahh damn fucked up with myself. I just feel like shutting the world out. What meticulous, my foot! I might as well just go and talk to some walls. Damn, goodbye.

Sighs! WHYY WHY WHY?!?!?! Why didnt i receive a reply??? I dont think i should call so early as it'll show that i am too eager isnt it? I think i'll fall sick because of this damn SIP thing lor. Every minute, it's on my mind. I'm worrying about whether i will even get a placement. There is still alot of time, but with so many people alr gng for interviews and even getting a placement, it's worrying the hell out of me. Is there like sth wrong with my application? Cant be what, i asked so many people to help me double check my cover letter! Unless they're all lying to me. This feeling really sucks. I am beginning to hate waiting. Like damn. Just go away, stupid worry, just go away.

I think sleeping now is a good choice.

It's a new week again! Times flies faster than a spaceship. ): Soon, before we all know it, it'll be end of sem alr. Hahahas. Like zoom! Ive decided to send in another application. Tmr. Too late now. And maybe many many more to come. Hahahahas. Shit, i think i am damn desperate. Howww! Why wouldnt one of them just reply me. Those that ive sent so far and the one i'm gng to send are those that i'm really interested in. Those that're either gng to break or confirm my plan for my own future. So i really hope i get either one of these 3. Arghs, why have i been rattling on about SIP recently. ): SIP makes me sad. Hahahas.

Tmr's gng to be a trip to Haw Par Villa. Omg, i think we're all gng to relive childhood. Hahahas. I rmb it was an awesome place when i was young. Please note, when i was young. Uh yea. Idk why it ended up the way it is today. So sad. Hahahas. But fret not! HTM students are here to save you! Hahahas. Okay madness.

I think that every project, you'll see students flooding the emails of certain organizations and also visiting some places of interests. HAHAHAHAS! I think those people are so sick of entertaining people like us.

Have been feeling really tired to do things recently. Like just now, i just turned into a couch potato the moment i reach home. Lying on the sofa in front of the TV for 4 hours straight, plus a few minutes of sleep in between. I cant even settle my mind to do some researching. So no F&B meeting tmr. I will need to plan properly before i hold a meeting. I think i can think better when i'm alone and when my mind is settled down. Hahahas.

Okay off to sleep! Goodnight air-ver-li-ba-di! Hahahas!

Why is it so humid these days! I'm feeling so sticky all over i feel like bathing agn although i just bathed at 8? Like omggg. Anyway, i guess i'm feeling better alr? Like after 2 days of slacking, i dont feel that emo alr? I totally slacked my weekend away. Felt so good. But still i managed to complete the research i need to do by tmr.

Brought my mama to buy her long-wanted diamonds today. She had wanted to buy it for herself, but thinking that i still owe her a birthday present plus mother's day gift, i decided to pay for her. Hahahas. So generous of me horrr. Not cheap hor! But then in the end she insisted on paying me a bit of it.

Anw, i want to share this video with all of you. So nice can! And i think the 7 yr old girl will be a talent nxt time. Hahahhaas. She can interpret a song, a romance song, at the age of 7. Wonderful. Oh, you have to listen to the story at the end of the song to understand what i mean here.

I dont know why i found so much fear inside. I feel so empty. I suddenly hope and need someone there for me. Someone who is always there. I find no one to empty my heart out. I cant even put what i'm feeling inside into words. I feel like crap now. Seriously. Ive been feeling so terrible these days, feeling that the world will just fail on me. Holy crap. So now all i do and enjoy is sleep. Everyday i'll just sleep the moment i reach home. I dont even feel like talking to anyone.

Anyway i'd wanted to go get my PDL today. So i woke up after that 14 hours of sleep and suddenly rmb that i have to drop by BBDC. And then i rmbed that today's a public holiday. So there goes my plan. Maybe monday then. If i can make it? Yea.

I totally agree that the govt likes to suck our money. My trip to the Singapore National Eye Centre cost me 169 bucks + 4 hours of my time. Like wthhh! My appt was at 9am, so i reached at ard 8.55am. Waited till 10am and it was finally my turn. I think the doctor came in only at 9.20-9.30am lor. Wth. And everyone there was supposed to go to her. Like omgg, the amount of people there was like damn alot? So i waited and waited and then she sent me for some tests which bloody cost 70 bucks. And after each test, i was supposed to wait. Totally a waste of time. Tsk! I watched like 3+ hours of news on channel newsasia today. Hahahas, until when they put this eyedrop which dilates my pupils and make my vision blurred did i stop watching that news. Hahahaas. Mt tummy was calling out to me for that whole 4 hours there and i kept watching the time to make sure i wont miss my tutorial although i took mc. See i so good right! Hahahhas. Actually is because i dont want to go to the tutorial next week not knowing anyone there! Hahahas.

So in the end i managed to make it to school in time and i had mac takeaways and ate at lightning speed. Hahahas, ahh, a bit exaggerating. I know i know. Hokay, anyway, nutrition was fun! The tutorial only lasted for 45 mins. Damn shiok! Just have to complete the worksheet and we can go! And people in my class was quite sociable. At least the 2 sitting next to me. Hahahas, so not bad la, at least i wont dread this tutorial every thursday.

I shall now go and do the staff roster, and then think of whether to go mail parcels and then go to the market to buy some stuff. Hahahas. I am thinking of how my dad will react when i tell him the price of the dumb eye check today. Hahahahhaas!

I'm feeling so scared. So scared that i might end up no where.

Called to national eye centre to make an appointment and what the hell i told the person i want to make a reservation. Walau, i cant believe what i said. HAHAHAHAS. Damn embarrassing. ): Heng the person cant see me. Anyway, the whole damn certificate will cost me 91 bucks. DAMN EX CANNN. ): The doctor better certify that i'm fit.

Projects are making progress. Just hope that everything can go according to plan. I'm lacking of energy now. I feel like sleeping. So goodnight.

It was a really long day...

Okay, i passed my BTT BUT i cant get through the stupid eye test. So right now i have 2 choices left. 1 is to go there and try again with my spects which i've not touched for 3 years. 2 is to get to national eye centre (where the hell is it man) to get a doctor to certify that i'm fit to learn driving. Crap man. Arghsss! Anw, i think BTT was not as easy as what everyone said. Maybe i was unlucky to get questions that never occurred to me before? I was damn scared to click on the 'end test' icon. I checked through like more than 3 times and realised quite a few mistakes here and there. Thankfully when i finally clicked on the end test icon, i got a passed. Hahahahas.

I've finally cleared off all the things on my table that i hardly touches. And finally i get space! Feel so free now. Previously it's so hard to even find one empty spot on my table. Now i can put my laptop on the left and do work on the right. Isnt that awesome? Hahahas. Just pray that it stays this way for longer than what i'm expecting.

There's nth much that's interesting for me to blog about except for the fact that while i was having the BTT, there was this MIC outside making a din. Saying that he just reached a little past 920 and the examiner dont want to let him in to take the test. Eh HELLO, for goodness sake the test starts at 915 and you're supposed to reach 15 minutes before the test time. You were in fact 20 mins late. Tsk, that guy really made me damn distracted during the test.

Now now i need to get my PDL!!! ):

I've finally finished gobbling up the whole green BTT book. And i'm praying hard that i can pass my BTT test tmr so that i can strike it off my wishlist. Yes. And also so that i can start learning my driving.

Oh my dad refuses to buy breakfast back for me and my bro today. My bro was so pissed this morning and he kept complaining and making such a fuss in the morning. But it was good that he bought breakfast for me. Hahahas. I think my dad is in horrible moodswing today. I didnt converse about like more than 10 sentences with him today. And he dont want to come out for dinner again, so i had my dinner at like 4pm. WTH. Now i'm hungry. ):

I dont know why people dont want to make an effort for family time. How hard is it to just leave a day or even a few hours for your family? Maybe just a meal is enough. Just some time to catch up with one another. To share about your happenings in life? I think my family is changing. No one makes the effort. Sighs.

Okay, off to sleep. Goodnight.

Arghs, i'm cracking my brains to solve 2 damn calculus questions! These were all simple to me in the past isnt it? But i guess they've all rusted and rot or maybe even evaporated from my brains alr. Damn, i feel so useless. How!!! And i hate my handwriting when i'm writing numbers. So ugly. ):

Oh btw did you all notice that my previous post and the previous previous one are both posted at the same exact time but on different day? Hahahahas. I think i always have the blogging mood at that time. Hahahahas.

Oh man, i feel like just slacking my life away but no, i have lots of things to do. ARGHHHHSSS. Whoever pls save me.

Dont you think it's really pathetic that your life just revolves around one person? Hmms.

It really sucks to not know what you really want in life. Right now i'm at a point where i have to make a decision which may lay the path to my future or just make me dread even more. Every step that i feel like taking, there's something that seems to be pulling me back. The thought of 'are you sure this is really what you want' keeps popping out. It's giving me a hellavu big headache. And i think that the world is too competitive. People are all turning into scary monster. I'm scared of my future. I'd seriously rather study all my life.

People always say money cant bring you everything. But do you actually know that money solves ALOT of problems? Say for example, when you're sick and you have the money, you get treated. Money buys you good education. Money buys you good life. You can go on holidays as and when you like, you can buy all the gorgeous clothes and diamonds. When you have money, you can eat whatever you want. You can buy as many houses as many cars as you want. Right? Okay, maybe if you put aside the fact that people are greedy and even though they have a lot of money they will still want more, money CAN bring you everything.

Right now other than fretting over the fact of where to apply for for my goddamn SIP, and also hoping that i can get into the ones i want, i am fretting over the fact that my parents wont be able to afford to give me the education i want. I'm fretting over not being able to get everything i want, and also my ever decreasing bank account balance. And guess what, i'm alr getting the jitters for interviews even before i've applied for any companies. Crapp.

Today i finally finish reading my book. The whole story was pretty boring at the starting and i really wanted to just give up on reading it. But i'm glad i continued cause the climax is only towards the end of the story. And this was the first time i ever felt my eyes stinging, with tears almost welling out from reading a romance story. Hahahas.

I think i should go and sleep off all my troubles. This post sounds so emo. ):

HEYHEYYYYY! I think rach's bdae celebration turned out awesome! Rach, dont you ergleee with meeeee???? HAHAHHAAS! Total fun! Thanks to Sinee for booking the placeee! I think that this year we planned nothing special, no surprises and all. But still we had lots of fun! We even had dinner at Macdonalds, omg can you believe it? Hahahahas. Piccas belowww! Click on them for the bigger ones to save.

Sitting Ducks! FUNNNN! :D

Hahahas, always not forgetting the classic BY pose!

Err, acting retarded but cute hokay!

Eh za, we did feed you what! Why so hungry want to eat the toy from taboo?!??!