It really sucks to not know what you really want in life. Right now i'm at a point where i have to make a decision which may lay the path to my future or just make me dread even more. Every step that i feel like taking, there's something that seems to be pulling me back. The thought of 'are you sure this is really what you want' keeps popping out. It's giving me a hellavu big headache. And i think that the world is too competitive. People are all turning into scary monster. I'm scared of my future. I'd seriously rather study all my life.
People always say money cant bring you everything. But do you actually know that money solves ALOT of problems? Say for example, when you're sick and you have the money, you get treated. Money buys you good education. Money buys you good life. You can go on holidays as and when you like, you can buy all the gorgeous clothes and diamonds. When you have money, you can eat whatever you want. You can buy as many houses as many cars as you want. Right? Okay, maybe if you put aside the fact that people are greedy and even though they have a lot of money they will still want more, money CAN bring you everything.
Right now other than fretting over the fact of where to apply for for my goddamn SIP, and also hoping that i can get into the ones i want, i am fretting over the fact that my parents wont be able to afford to give me the education i want. I'm fretting over not being able to get everything i want, and also my ever decreasing bank account balance. And guess what, i'm alr getting the jitters for interviews even before i've applied for any companies. Crapp.
Today i finally finish reading my book. The whole story was pretty boring at the starting and i really wanted to just give up on reading it. But i'm glad i continued cause the climax is only towards the end of the story. And this was the first time i ever felt my eyes stinging, with tears almost welling out from reading a romance story. Hahahas.
I think i should go and sleep off all my troubles. This post sounds so emo. ):
