Dropped by Sinee's workplace after school ytd to entertain her as i had an hour to spare before meeting chel. Went to school for like 30 mins only. Waste my time. ): So when i reached thr, that hardworking woman was COPYING notes. Hahahaas! And then we started to take photos. Hahahas.

I'm gng kite-flying tmr. Wheee :D But i hope i wont be a lightbulb. Hahahahas! And what's making it even more awesome is that my dad will come and pick me up after that. Heh. Awesomeeeee.

I am trying to catch up with where i left off for Boys before flowers and it's pretty hard. I thought i watch till this episode but halfway through i realise i caught this part on teevee alr. So i decided to close everything. Hahahas. Maybe hell's kitchen is better? Or project runway? Arghs i miss watching chuck and HIMYM. But my whole series went dead with my previous hdd. ):

Supposed to be up at 6 plus to start studying for nutrition. But only managed to pull myself out of bed at 930. Finished reading through. But all the information in my mind now are jumbled up. This is so boring. After 3 years of not having any contact with science. I'm back to memorizing scientific terms. Who the hell invented these names? Why must they be so complicated?!?!??!!

Online shopping is so much more interesting. And physical shopping later. Ive just wasted 1 hr which i can use on studying to surf the net.

And i've got peer appraisals and self directed learning to do. I must rmb to do tonight. So not in the mood to do right now. Sighs.

I realise i always dream that i'm smoking. Which is sth i dont think i'll ever do in reality. But those dreams seemed so realistic. What does this mean?

I was googling on hairstyles that suits my face shape. And damn ive a square face. Like spongebob? Apparently my hairstyle now is supposed to suit my face, except for the bangs i recently cut. They said i should have sideswept bangs. And maybe some waves. Always contemplating on waves cause they kind of make people looks old. And i'm afraid to try. But i feel like changing my hairstyle.

And i'm so gng to master the art of drawing eye liner and not smudge it to look like a panda. I'm such a vainpot.

I can go to sleep like now! :D Finished one topic of nutrition which is on proteins. I seriously dont think anything got into my head. Maybe 10%? Oh my. But i'm tired. So i shall go sleep. Today was a pretty good day. Watched the group play badminton while i copied lodging notes for 1 hr. And i went to desti lect (even joy say it was a miracle, ha!) Went to orchard to explore Ion after that and also join Maddy and her group for their restaurant review. Went to Xinwang instead of Meritus in the end. The questionnaire is like 11 pages. LOLS. Anw we totally went mad waiting for Jasmine to finish her food. Hahahahas! Even went to the extent of growing chilli plant in the stomach. See how bad it was? Tsktsk. Oh btw ion is nice. You can even go to 4 lvls below ground. Isnt that cool? Hahahas. Going there agn tmr. This time with chel! :D

Okay off to sleep! Super sleep-deprived. OH and i nearly missed my stop for school this morning. Luckily some kind soul was sitting beside me and she actually saw that i've got the TP face. So she tapped me and went 'are you dropping off here?' And i went like 'yeayea! thank you!' totally flustered. I think she was laughing at my reaction. Hahahas. But yea, thank god for her, if not i'd end up at Tampines and be late for my test. Hahahas.

Reminder to self - call up my instructor.

Maybe sometimes, we shouldnt try at all. Cause deep inside we know the end result will not be what we desire. But still we always hold on to the slightest possibility isnt it? Oh wells, life's hard. Let's just not think so much.

All the best to myself. :D Damn scared now. ):

Updated-

I passed! Heh. :D Like finally. Okay current need - save 237 bucks or more within the next 1 month for BKK trip. Damn. All because my bro refuses to pay me my 140 bucks. Chances of getting it back is damn slim i think. ): And guess what, i'm gng to eat at chatterbox meritus mandarin tmr. Hahahas. Talk about saving up!

And there's opera test tmr. Hahahas. Why did they name it opera? Funny ehs. And there's shopping tmr and on thurs. But i'm not gng to get anything. Seriously. :D The self control is there. And i've nutrition quiz on thurs yet to be studied. Hokay, i shall listen to the presentation thing for opera after i bathe and then maybe study abit of nutrition. Or maybe i can use the time they use to play badminton to study tmr. :D

Omg i like this shoe ehs. It's customized 2-key boat shoe from Timberland! You get to put your initials on it! How cool is that! A shoe you can so totally call yours. Unless someone has the same initials as you luh. The colour i saw on the magazine is way nicer. It was a more pastel green for the side and a lighter pink for the back. But i couldnt find those colours on the web. Bet they editted the photo before putting it on the magazine! Tsk! But oh well, this customized shoe will cost an effing $279. Let's all put off the thought. Hahahas.

Sometimes, no matter how hard you try in keeping something, or maintaining something, even just making sure that you remember to do this on that particular day, you'll lose track somehow, in one way or another. Really sad but you cant help it, if it's meant to be that way. Goodbye to 24th.

Hahahas, sorry for the very not organized post for i keep coming back to add on to the post. LOLS. right now i'm watching the match between liverpool and singapore. Hahahas. You didnt hear wrongly. Liverpool against singapore. Hahahas! And score now? 5-0. And the whole stadium which i think is filled with tons of singaporeans but not supporting the singapore team but liverpool. Hahahas. I cant help but laugh. Seriously? Singapore against Liverpool? Oh my.

Anw, how's my new blog header?

Because it's gng to be a different and stranger land. I'm scared. Although ive gotten the approval, i'm not sure.

The weather is soooo hot! I think you could probably cook an egg under the moon. Hahahas. Oh my what am i talking about. This is getting absurd. Hahahahas. I watched taken for the second time. And this time with my parents. Throughout the whole movie, they were telling me how this is actually real and it happens in every single country. Make me scared lehs. :S

If i pray harder, do you think it'll happen?

Finally met up with jo, joy and nickyyy! It's been so longg! Although i always hang out with like jo cause of proj grp, joy cause of cya. The 4 of us were never gathered together! And so this time we embark on a eating journey again! Hahahas. We never fail to eat when we meet. If one day i turn into a fatty, i'm gng to blame it on you guys! Hahahas. We even discussed where to eat at on our next outing. Hahahas! And so many choices came up. Bedok 85, eighteen chef, Manhattan's, Simpang prata, Breek's and more. There were so many that i cant remember anymore! Can you imagine? Hahahas.

New york new york ytd. And that dumb jo dont want to heed my advice and she ordered the pancake breakfast dish. For dinner. And she totally regretted. HAHAHAS. The pancake was like burger. So thick. And she said MAC's tasted better. See la! And i had the bigass chicken spagetti dish. Awesome. :D Btw the whole point of gng to newyorknewyork was for Joy's bloody eyeball. Hahahas. Which was nice. :D After a while of shopping, we had mudpie and a not-very-nice-and-worth-it dessert dish at coffee club. Hahahas. Some meille-feulle or sth dish. Dont order it if you go to coffee club!

I'm kind of bored of blogger. Should i change to another blogging server? Hahahas.

This weekend is kind of more relaxing. Except that i should really study for my FTT on tues alr. Since ive got CYA on mon. I cant afford to fail anymore. Hahahas. And there's nutrition quiz on thurs. What else? Opera test on wed. Now that all the projs are over, except for lodging presentation, it's left with test and exams and then internship. Oh and peer evaluations. Hahas. And i feel like watching some shows now. Heh.

And yays, i'm meeting maddy and chel next wk! Hoho! :D

I want to go BKK during the 1-week holidayyyyyy! Going to save save save for it! I dont care.

Am back again! Finally done with my nutrition assignment! Now left with calculus assignment to study for.

Anyway i was so amazed by myself that after so long, i've finally accepted the fact that you're no longer here and no longer will be. Goodbye for good. Maybe we'll meet again, maybe we'll see each other again few years down the road, but we'll not be the same again. Although you still appear in my mind every now and then, i'm no longer affected that much. I guess it's time.

It's a wonder how things kind of happen for a reason isnt it? We fail a test when we're starting to get complacent. We lose something for good when it's time to let go. We choose to make this decision because we're supposed to. Ha.

Oh and regarding the humans are funny animals part. Dont you think we are all very funny living creatures (Sounds like we're monsters, hahas)? Why must we get back at people when people do something to you? Why must we do things behind people's back? Why must we always compare ourselves to others? Why must we be greedy? Why cant we just live happily? Why must we create sadness or anger for ourselves? We're all weird, period.

My sis just said that she hates me and wished that she didnt have a sister like me. Hmms. Maybe i was selfish. I wasnt a good sister. I didnt help her when she need to. I had to divulge her secrets and make her get scolded. I didnt lend her my things. I push all blames to her. Yes i wasnt a good sister. I was wrong to scream at her when i needed to use the comp when she had to do her homework. I shouldnt have talk back at her when she say she wish she didnt have a sister like me. I should have take my mum's feelings into consideration. She must have been very hurt to hear her daughters screaming at each other telling each other they wish the other wasnt there. I dont have the right to scold her for anything cause i am not much a better person i think. Maybe these are just parts and parcels of life. However, no matter how much i scream at her, how much i show my unwillingness to help her and share my things with her, i do everything like telling my parents about her doings all out of concern and care for her. For fear that she might regret whatever she do now. I'd wanted to help her with her revision for N levels. However much i want to commit myself to teaching her, my schoolwork are already suffocating enough for me, and i cant bring on another responsibility anymore. It's really not that i dont want to.

Oh my i tried my best to crap as much as i can for my nutrition assignment and i'm only at 2 and half page now. Help helpppp! ): Arghs and the aching is not much better today. I had to drag myself out of bed to do this dumb assignment. And i dont think i can hand in the assignment today. Cause i think the current quality kind of sucks. So i shall improve on it after i get back from my nutrition class. Hahahas. Hopefully not everyone will hand in their assignment during tutorial later. Am feeling so lazy to go to school. Oh btw i was shocked by the nutrient intake of mine. Hahahas. The amount of sodium is scary. And i think i seriously lack in calcium. Shall take more yogurt. Yogurt yogurt yogurt. Hahahas.

Off to my cup noodle lunch! So pathetic right, i know. ):

I cant find anything interesting to blog about. Oh! Have have! Remind myself - i want to talk about how funny humans are. Hahahas. Okay tonight if i can tell myself i have confidence in my calculus test tmr i'll blog about that alrights! Hahahas!

My injury is taking its toll on my arms and muscles within my body. My goodness. I'm having a hard time even raising my arms. And i'm sitting so still so as to prevent too much movement of my body cause it aches so much. So right now it's only my fingers moving. Hahahas.

What do i need to do today - nutrition assignment. I hope i can finish by tmr. Going off to sleep first. Cant take it anymore. ):

The very clumsy me fell today. It's been really long since i last fall. ): So pain i cried. Hahahas. I felt like a little girl falling down and tears just start to roll down subconsciously. Anw it wasnt my clumsiness, it was just that my legs were numb and they gave way. Everyone on the floor above looked down la. And there was this group who was walking up the stairs. Omg man, damn embarrassing. Hopefully there werent any cute guys among there. Hahahahas!

And my oh my, ive not done my presentation script yet. Today's MICE interview sucks. Got stupid questions which i think i misinterpret and answered wrongly. ): Doing the slides now. Done everything but the animation still not done yet. And i want to bathe now.

Hokay, i'm finally done with the slides. Animations all done. Now off to my script. I'm only left with blue cue cards. Blue cue cards make me sad cause they're blue. Hahhas!

Updated at 1.22am. I finished my script. However it is 7.15mins long. and i dont know hw to cut it any shorter without cutting any contents that i feel is impt. And ng sinee is ignoring me on msn. Who's gng to help me. Omg. ):

Tell me more. Tell me more. Will you.

Just launched collection 15 at the-taitais! :D Go see hokay hokay?

Tmr's MICE interview and i have not studied abit. Xuete! Howww! ): No mood somemore. Boohoo.

Okay i better go and find motivation. And i still have HPV slides to do later. Arghs. Work is never ending.

Had photoshoot ytd. It was so much better than the previous time which was with someone i was unfamiliar with. I guess that being comfortable with the photographer is important. Anyway it was fun. The same thing that happened everytime i take photos happened again. Which is halfway through i got so bored that i'll go crazy. This time what we did was to find props and utilized whatever we could find in the room. Hahahas. Photos are great except that i didnt put on eye makeup for the fear that it might melt off under the hot sun. And the result was my eyes look damn small in the photos. ): Anw, i learnt alot of things ytd, learnt that photo-taking is really not just about taking photos only. It's amazing. Hokay, anticipate collection 15! :D Should be up by next week ya?

Next week will be scary. Tues MICE interview, wed HPV presentation, thurs Nutrition assignment due, fri Calculus assignment. And i havent prepared for ANY one of them. ): This spells trouble. Hahahas. Oh and Jojo actually said my blog reminds her of the things that need to be done ehs. All the deadlines. Hahahaas. That forgetful girl. Okay, gng off to dinner soon!

We shouldnt jump to conclusion because we never know how much it will actually hurt someone. Just like how it just did. We shouldve showed our concern and not put the blame on you. I didnt know it'd hurt so much until you showed it. And i'm sorry for not hearing your side of the story. It wasnt your fault at all. We were all wrong.

This is so boring! I really dont like you, mr homework. Oh wait, what's ur gender? Let's name you Miss/Ms/Mrs/Mr Homework hokay? Hahahas. Arghs. Ive so many things to do. Individual reflection and peer evaluation for HPV proj. Editing of HPV layout map. Self-directed learning for MICE. Calculus Tutorial. All due tmr. Helpppp.

And the whole point is i dont have any motivation to do any of it. ):

Sian-ness has taken over me officially. I cannot drag myself to do anything now. And the weather is so cooling, a everyone-should-go-to-sleep weather. I think i'm falling sick alr. Having headache for the whole day. And my body aches. ):

Nth much happened lately. Except for zy and kh's bdae celebration over at newton and then to somerset then to zy's hse. Wanted to go to the night festival, but didnt in the end. Saw on fb that many went and it was awesome. ):

Didnt sleep for the whole of fri's night and totally crashed after i reach home. All i do nowadays is sleep bathe sleep again.

Went to Top Table with CYA thurs crew today! Has been long since the last get-together, which is idk when? Hahahas. And i think the food standard kind of dropped. Maybe it's because the things or the ingredients they used are not to my liking. Like the carrot and ginger thing. I totally dont know how to appreciate that. And the starter which was chicken consumme, tasted like chicken essence. Which i personally dont like. I had one mouth and tim helped me drank the rest. Hahahas. And the main thing for today's get-together was to celebrate Jingting and Tim's bdaes, but i had to go at 2 for my class so didnt join in the celebration at Sugarloaf.

Tmr's Kh and Zy's bdae celebration! Gng to be a simple one! No time to plan for fanciful celebrations. Hahahas.

I shall go and watch shows and then do HPV at nightt!

And after that was MICE project meeting. Totally boring that we came up with a video. Hahahas. I think it'll take super long to upload here so go to fb and watch.

Oh there was this lao huo guo beside the steamboat stall we were eating at and it seemed very popular. We were trying to think of a reason why and here's what me and sinee came up with. The steamboat is old. Has wrinkles and white hair. Hahahas. Damn lame la.

After steamboat we went to KAP MAC. Hahahas. Eat and eat and eat. Should nv go out too often with this stupidwoman, all she knows how to do is eat. Hahahahas.

Shall we all treasure whatever we have right now? Be contented with our surrounding, the place we're in now? Be grateful that we have food to eat, a clean home to live in, a safe place to be in? No bombs dropping everywhere. No worrying about where we will be living today. No worrying about if we will get to eat today.

Was looking at Steve McCurry's works just now and after viewing a few albums, there's a tinge of sadness felt in me. I suddenly feel so grateful for everything i have now. For my family. For my friends. For getting proper chairs and tables to do work. For being able to receive an education. For having food to eat everyday. For having clothes to wear everyday. For being able to have clean water. For having a bed to sleep on. For having a safe and clean shelter to live under.

The look in all the children's eyes. You can instantly see the difference. The sadness in their eyes, even though they're smiling. They're so totally different from the children you see in Singapore. The look of insecurity. Wondering if they get to eat that day. Wondering when the war will end. It's just so heart wrenching. ): So let's all be contented. Dont waste food, dont take things for granted. All the things that we so often take for granted are like diamonds to these children. To the people in those countries.

Anw, ive got lodging to do. Bathing time first!

Failure failure failure.

Sucks.

Maybe it's all fated for me to lose all my things in my HDD. Although they were really really important to me. Maybe it's a sign? Idk. I just feel very tired.

Goodbye.

So everyday, it's crashing on the sofa in front of the teevee. Reach home at around 10pm almost everyday. And i hardly get to see my parents nowadays. Hokay, i should make it a point to come home early today! Oh sheez, i've FTT today, so that means home at 8? Damn that's late too. I miss reaching home at 4 or 5pm and then anticipating dinner and waiting for my parents to come home. Hahahas.

Anw, i slept on the couch till 1145pm ytd night, waking up and wanting to go bathe, but realise the water at this time is pathetically weak, so decided to sleep for another 15 mins before i finally drag myself out of the comfortable sofa. Wanted to do LOS research after bathing but looking at the state of my table (it's now like a war zone) and my energy level being at like 0.00001%, i decided to head off to my bed. Oh and i actually set my alarm at 5am. Hahahas, and guess what, i guess you're all right, i didnt wake up at that time. I woke up at freaking 7am. Which means i'm only left with 2 and a half hours to do my research and what not. And now that i'm here typing unnecessary stuff, i am not dng anything productive again. And considering the fact that still have 3/4 of the FTT Q&A book to read. Die.

Okay, oh btw updates on my dear HDD. It's now in the hands of sh and he said that it can be recovered! Thank god man!