Like I said a few posts back, I have decided to a management. BUT somehow, there are some doubts in me. I dont know why. Questions start to pop out in my mind. 'Will I regret?' 'Is this really what I want?' 'What if halfway through, I realise that this isnt what I want? How then?'. ARGHS, I tell you all these thoughts are so killing me silently. I have like a few more days to decide only. Shit, mind oh mind, can you please make up your mind, quick. ):

Are there times when you really want to share something with somebody, but somehow there is this fear/thought in you telling you 'no, dont do it'?

I guess it has come to a point when everyone doesnt care anymore. Everyone is going separate ways. Period.

I am standing at the crossroads, pondering on which way to go. The next step I take is crucial. Very crucial.

Arghs, I hate it when my comp is running scans. Totally slows down everything I'm doing. I'm so bored now. ): Although I know I should use the time to do my research paper, but I really dont want to do it yet. Tonight it shall be. Hahahahas. Consultation is on Tuesday. Submission date is on next next Tuesday. Oh yes, yingqiu, time is tight. It really is. Ha, trying to convince myself to start. BUT sorry failed. Lols.

I shall leave house earlier to drop by the libraryyy! :D Books due today! Okay, I have not much to say either, just trying to kill time. Goodbye!

Arghs! I'm frustrated! Grrr. Trying to clear my table is such a challenge. Tried to clear the cupboards above and around my table, but end up messing the whole floor. Now I'll surrounded by the mess and I dont feel like clearing anymore. Oh and I was so violent I broke the tip of my pagoda which is supposed to help in my studies. Although I'm not the superstitious kind, but somehow I cant help thinking if it will affect. ): How how how.

And I was supposed to start doing my research paper today. But guess clearing up this mess will take me another erm 2-3 hours? By then, it will be evening time already. Which means dinner and teevee time. Hahahas. How! There goes my stay-home wednesday.

Maybe I should just leave the mess like that so that no one can get through my room! Hahahas. Good idea har! Haiya, it shall be relax time now. :D Leave the mess as it is.

Had my final NAPFA test ytd, and right now every inch of muscle in me is aching. Tomorrow will be worse. If anyone is to tell me there will still be NAPFA in university, I will faint right away. Hahahahas. Oh anyway, I failed my NAPFA la. Failed the sit and reach and 2.4 run. Hahahas. What do you expect from someone who hasnt been working out for 3 years man. BUT, I got A for sit up and pull up kae! Hahahas. It's an accomplishment. :D

Could you bring me to this place? The place most associated with love, because I would love to have a bit of it.

Goodnight. Jiayou Jocelyn! :D

): Working on the portfolio is such a bore. ): Am at page 5 going to 6. But I am starting to run out of things to write. Boohoo. And the storybook beside me is tempting me to not do this portfolio. The thought of watching hai pai tian xin is also much tempting. But the thought of having to hand in this on Monday is scary. But 90% of my brain is so not wanting to do it. How! 90% vs 10% lehs. You see the difference??? Hahahas. Maybe... I should watch my show and then kick off that thought, so it will be like erm 60% vs 40%? Better right? Hahahahas!

Okay I thought of a plan! Every 2 page I type in my portfolio, I can get to do something to rest for a while! Hahahas. Bingo! I hope I dont end up having to work through the night tomorrow trying to complete the stupid portfolio. Hahahahas.

Hello everyone! Remember to do your E-journal for January okay! I bet many of you didnt know. If everyone knows, then it's just me. ): I feel so tired alr. Having only done my e-journal. Now I have to go bathe and then do up a list for the handover. Arghs. And I still have SIP Portfolio. ):

Update more later! :D

Why do I feel so tired everyday? ): I really wanted to do my portfolio today. I actually opened the file. But my mind refuses to work. So not my fault. Now I can feel my heart in my brain. It's pounding so hard. I cant think at all. I think I should sleep already. Hahahas. Everyday I come home feeling like going for a jog but then I'll feel like watching teevee so I'll end up sitting down for teevee. ARGHS.

Anyway, work has been super boring because now I have to give up my lappie to the new girl. So without the comp, you can only resort to things like photocopying and filing. Hahahas, I am trying to use like 3 days to do all the filing when I can do it in one day you know! Because I fear not having things to do. Hahahahhaas! Anyway, I shall go read my storybook and sleep. Goodnight!

Hello! Just when the whole world seems to be doing their SIP Portfolio, I am idling away because my hand just refuses to move the mouse to the SIP Report file on my desktop. I am tired but I dont feel like sleeping. Why so?

Anyway, I have decided and accept the fact that I will not be able to afford a Mercs or Lexus at the moment. So settling for Toyota Prius. Pretty right?!?! In awesome red somemore! Okay, this shall be it! It shall be my motivation to pass my damn test. Hahahahas! Oh btw, I havent found out the price for this. But definitely more attainable than my dreams. Hahahahas. Okay I shall go check it out!

Okay holy shit, this car cost about 100k. Hahahas. No wonder it's so not common in Singapore.

As much as I wish to change to another blogging platform, I cant bear my going-to-be three years old blog. I went through my blog randomly and somehow I feel that the things I blog about seem to be more and more boring. Yawns.

Looking back at the times when I went travelling, I suddenly miss taking the plane, miss going to the airport. I really want to fly on a plane right now. Just in 2009 alone, I went to 2 countries. I really feel like going overseas this year. But. Money seems to be a problem. I cannot bear to spend the money when I know I can spend it in better ways. Rather than just on myself. Kind of selfish isnt it.

What will 2010, the year of tiger brings? Will it bring a better life? Will it bring love? Will it bring good results? Will it bring better future? Will it bring more wealth? All we can do, is pray. Every year, I do the same. Sometimes, the prayers are answered but sometimes not.

Oh did I mention it's less than one month to my driving test again? I havent been driving for 2 months already. Will the new year bring me a pass?

I have learnt. to not take things seriously. because many a times, it will just land you hurt.

Both me and joy managed to did a little of our portfolio the other day when we took leave. Next half day off, Wednesday! Hoho, and this time we head to the National Library. Omg, I cant believe we are using off days to do school work! See how hardworking we are? HAHAHAHAS!

That one lecture for our final module on Saturday was really a bomb. Having to complete the research by like 9 Feb when we only start school on 25 Jan??? You can count the number of days with your fingers and toes okay? ): I can predict sleepless nights and hell. PLUS I'll be preparing for my driving test yet again. Sadness.

Okay, I dont know what else to blog about already. Nothing interesting has been happening in my life. Wait till someone talk to me about some interesting things and I shall share it with you all. :D Ohoh, anyway I volunteered to help clean the house today, like tidy up the cupboards in the kitchen. Gosh, I was so afraid to find like cockroaches or lizards can! :S But anyway, I got really fed up trying to tidy it in the end because my mum doesnt want to throw alot of things away! Things like those you only use when you were a kid. And those freebies stuff you get from buying some other things. So in the end, trying to tidy up the cupboard just simply returns it back to what it was like before. Oh btw, 9/10 of the things in the cupboard we dont touch at all. And! With the amount of plates and bowls we have at home, we can literally go and open a chinaware shop. Bottomline, I think I would be more happy trying to tidy up my own room. So I shall do that next week. Hahahhahas.

Do you all know what does RSVP stands for? I have always been curious but never bother to find out. But one day, I did a search on google and apparently, it stands for respondez sil vous plait (French). Meaning please reply. Hahahas. See you all learn something new today. :D

Sometimes I wonder, am I pushing my luck? Ayes, idk.

Anyway, today I packed stuff at work once again. I felt like I was moving house. Hahahas. But still I enjoy packing stuff more than facing the computer. Hahahas. And the pile that needs to be filed is growing. I was intending for that to be the first task for the new temp worker when he/she comes in. BUT someone says that if I give them this task, the new person will quit within 1 day. HAHAHAHAS. Shucks man. Now I am stuck with the filing. Oh did i add, in the smelly storeroom? With rats and cockroaches corpses. Yes, that's indeed why the new person will quit within 1 day. Rahhs.

As the last day of internship creeps nearer, the mood to work seems to be dying off. Everyday I just feel so lethargic and totally dont feel like moving when I'm in the office. Why... And another thing I am currently dreading is, my portfolio. Tomorrow's half day aim is to finish 2 pages. This is not set by me. Hahahahas. We shall see if we manage to complete this.

Holy crap! I just read through the topics for my last module and that's the only word, no wait, words, that came out from my mouth. Am at a total loss. The things that you can write for each topic is like limited. And most reports will kind of be the same. SOOO, let's put our mind at ease and chill first. HAHAHAS. I need 3 days to recover from this shock first. Anyway, need to choose our topics by 15 Jan.

Today I asked, how do you know who is the one you should get married to. Someone told me, when you're with this someone, you no longer get attracted to someone else, when you do not fall in love so easily with someone else anymore, that's when you are ready for marriage.

There was this once i asked wouldnt it be boring to be stuck with this same person for like how many decades of your life? Someone answered me with, there are many different phases and each one brings you closer. Each one brings new excitement. New experience. New things to learn.

So there you go, adult life. Hitting the big 2 this year. Not exactly young anymore, neither old enough. Have you ever thought of when you want to get married? I've always thought 24 is an ideal age, but damn, that's like 4 more years. If someone great and marriable (okay, this is from the yingqiu-nary) would drop down from the sky right now, perhaps that's possible. HAHAHAS.

Okay, why am i thinking of marriage now? Perhaps it comes with the new year. hahahahahahas.

It's about 17 or less days left of internship. If you ask if I want to leave, I'd tell you, I want to leave the work there, but I will miss the people there.

Nothing is predictable. So let's do nothing.

Arghs, bored to the max. It's 12am and the sleeping bug isnt here yet. I feel like reading my storybook till i sleep but the story makes me feel sick cause it's so sadistic. LOLS! Howhowhow. Feel like hitting some balls. Next week next week. Working tomorrow. This is the 3rd saturday we're working in a row already. SIAN. ARGHSS, I cant stand this boredom. Shall go lie in bed till i sleep! Bye everyone! Goodnight! :D

Yesterday went well. Although there were some screw-ups here and there with the air-con failing on us. And also with the fact that I didnt do much either. Thank you Joy for all the things you did for the CDP. You had so many things to do and yet whenever I want so much to help, I cant finish dealing with all the things I have on hands too. And also, thanks for even helping me with my stuff. I owe you big time babe! :D

Nevertheless it was great getting to see everyone enjoying themselves. Oh you'll never have imagined that all those people will be so crazy can?! I was AMUSED. Hahahahahas! Anyway, I am praying that my 4D number will win. HAHAHAHHAHHAAS! Shall not say the number.

It's a new year already, but i doesnt feel like new year to me. I bet I'll still continue to write 2009. Hahahas. Since I've been writing for typing it for the past 365 days. I dont have any resolutions for the year because everything will turn out to become crap in the end. So why bother. Hahahas!

So everyone, HAPPY 2010! Hope the new year will bring more great things to your life! Cheers!

Oh btw, rashes sucks. Joy, the rashes spreaded already. Heng yesterday never spread yet. Hahahas! Siannnn.

I cant help but think how things went wrong the previous time.