Arghs! I missed the showing of Titanic last night on Channel 5! Let me tell all of you a secret. After hearing so many things about Titanic, I have never watched it before. Not that I remember of. Hahahahas. I think many of you wouldnt believe what I just said right! But seriously! Which was why I wanted to watch in yesterday. But sadly I forgot all about it. ):

The weather is seriously killing me. I wonder if the hike tomorrow will turn me chaoda. There has been signs that rain will come, with the thunder yesterday and the dark clouds today. BUT STILL NO RAIN! Hmph! ): Okay, dont rain tomorrow! I want to go for my hike. The aim is to get Joy's watermelon seeds. Hahahas. That girl wants to plant watermelon. -.- Anyway back to the weather. Everytime I get out of the shower, I start to sweat again. Which is really vexing!

Hooked to Glee now. (: Nice show. Anyone has any idea which season is it at now? Or has it just started?

I have been hooked to tumblr. Hahahas. I love reading what others post. I dont intend to have a tumblr account though.

Anyway, I drove my mum and dad home from dinner just now. HAHAHAS! In the van. Damn, it was damn damn damn scary. And right after it, there is one thing I'm very sure of. I like cars better. I think for the time being, I shall stick to being my dad's passenger. Lols.

Goodnight world. (:

All my gatherings with the primary school usuals always end at weird timings. Hahahas. They start at weird timings too. Yesterday's was supposed to start at 10pm but I went at 10.30 and was the first one there. Hahahas. We played board games, mahjong, card games (which i just realised i'm such a loser cause i dont know how to play most of the games). Lols. I heard of the games, but dont know exactly the rules and all of the games la. Oh and do you all know Monopoly now has the card version. Hahahas. Quite cool though but I think it's really difficult to win la. Maybe it was because there were too many of us playing. Hahahas. I think at about 3 plus, 2 people K.O. already. Leaving 4 of us still playing, my mind was completely zoning out though. We left at 5am when we realised that we will just stone if we continue on. Hahahas. No one was talking sense anymore. Had wanted my Mac breakfast, but at like 5am, my mind was saying sleep is more essential now. Woke up at 3pm and it was too late to get Mac breakfast! ):

I have this urge to try driving my daddy's van! Wahahahas. The day I try, I will tell you guys. Hahahas.

The thought of packing my wardrobe has been there since last week? Hahahas. But until now, no action has been taken yet! Arghs. Okay shall start TODAY! :D

Should I go to Taiwan????? ): It's going to most likely cost me 1.3k for 7 nights. That is including expenses which is really cheap you know. I just spent almost 400 on French lessons. It's 400 for 2 months. So abt 2.4k to complete the whole level. Arghs. This is dilemma. Hahahas. My mum doesnt seem to favour the idea of me going to Taiwan. Oh and she still dont know the fact that I signed up for french lessons. Hahahas. She asked me, you have the money to go? And you are going to uni already you know? Need lots of money. Damn. ):

To Sinee: eh! Sihui say you on for Taiwan already ar! Never hear you say lehs! Now very pressurizing lehs. He say everyone on except for me. ):

I've been having bad nights recently. No matter how tired I am mentally and physically, I cant seem to sleep. I think I only managed to fall asleep at 4am yesterday. After 3 hours of tossing and turning. And this is mad crazy. If it's going to happen everyday, I think I'll turn into a panda pretty soon.

Anyway, went for CYA gathering yesterday. Okay, I went all the way to Pasir Ris to eat at the foodcourt. Tell me about it. Hahahahas.

I've been thinking about things recently. A lot of things. So much that it's got my brain so tired. But the thoughts just wont stop coming through. Damn.

I'm going to bathe and go out soon. Really lazy to go out at such a timing. ): Mahjong tonight. Great, save me from the insomnia. (:

I keep having this urge to go shower. -.- Cause recently I have been taking my shower at this time, but today I showered in the evening due to a lack of things to do. Hahahas. Okay, that was random, you all dont need to know. Anyway! I am super bored at home and I need things to do! Can you guys (there are only the few of you), just date me out! Help me think of activities to do! Arghs. Before I go mad from this boredom. Seriously, I think it's funny how when we do not have time, we just find that holidays are so good, but now that we have all the time in the world, we I am hating it!

The photo above, was on the day we sent Meiyi off to Perth. It's been quite a while since all 7 of us are present in one whole photo. It was also the day when Liza provides us with good news! :D Happy for her!

Hmms, I'm kind of getting sick of watching videos already. And now I'm craving for Jalan Kayu's Banana Prata. Hahahas. I think my butt is growing bigger, my tummy is protruding out more from all this sitting. Oh and my face, it's growing so big I can hardly see my eyes anymore! (Okay, I dont know where's the link with sitting, but anyway, who cares.) Dont laugh! I can see all of your grins! I should go out. Anyone??? Hahahahas. Come on, pack my schedule please. Hahahas.

Just received my sister's phone bill again and once again, it nearly made me faint. Last month it was 260+ this month, lesser but still 125+. In just 2 months, her total bill could be mine for 10 months. This time it's not due to long talk hours or smses, anyway her sms is still scary at 3400sms. Hello, how do one send so many smses in one month?!?! I tried to use like mad and still only amount to 600+ lehs. Okay anyway, I think it's due to the data usage that is payable.

The point i want to make here is that Starhub sucks la. How can data usage amount up to like 100 over bucks. And seriously most of the time, we're using wifi at home lehs. I heard of many cases of this with Starhub alr. Last month, we still blindly paid for that 200 over bucks. This month, I'm going to complain. Tried calling in just now and they put me on hold till I gave up. Emailed and got an auto-reply saying that they're busy due to the high volume of enquiries they're getting on their recent promotions. Hahahas. Seriously??? Nvm, we shall see if they reply SOON. If not I'm going to try to call again. Tsk.

Everytime I look at my bank balance, my heart will drop. Hahahahas. Especially so for this month. Oh man, I had wanted to save up and ended up spending more. Hahahahas. Now I think I really have to consider working already. I'd thought I could survive this long holiday without working. Arghs. Oh and I need to bank in more moolah so that I wont feel so depressed looking at the amount the next time I sign in. Okay, any job lobangs people? Slacker jobs? Cause I really dont feel like moving/ working. I think I'm turning into a lazy bum.

Oh btw, I kind of feel like travelling again. ): Moolah moolah please come to me. Rahs.

Now that school's ended, I'm left with plenty of time and nothing to do. While everyone is busy looking for jobs already, I just feel like nua-ing for a while before looking for a job. Dont you think that doing anything is just plain boring? Hahahas. So for the time being, I shall meet up with some friends and go out, erm without spending much money. Hahahahas. I suddenly feel broke.

Went to JB yesterday with se, yx, sh and sc. To this mall called erm, was it city square mall? Hahahas, whatever. Oh boy, it was kind of boring there. All the clothes there were too, erm bugis street? Hahahas. Ayes, bottom line is there is nothing much there. It was such a tiring day. We just shopped and ate.

The previous 3 days has involved lots of walking. Which totally killed my poor feet. Especially the second day with heels. Omg man, I came home, took of the heels and wondered if my feet were still with me. And then I just sat down and not move for about an hour. Hahahas. Yes, killer heels. I really respect those ladies who can walk in their heels, especially those Aldo shoes, for the whole day and everyday.

Melaka trip is confirmed on the 7th of March! People who are familiar with that place, please tell me what to look out for, and where to go! Cause online research just doesnt show me much! Ohoh, and where are the good food! Thank youuuuuu! :D

I shall idle today away with shows shows and more shows.

Wow, 3 days of holiday really passed by fast! But it's still holidays for me! Heh. Except for that interview on Thursday. Going to school for just 15-20 mins is such a dreadful thing! Oh and I have not prepared a single bit for that interview. I need to re-read my research paper 10 times more. Hahahas. Cause I totally cannot remember the content of it anymore.

Trip to Malacca shall be booked tomorrow. This year, it's just going to be a short vacation. No flights. ): I want to take planeeeee! But nvm, getting to explore somewhere new is good enough for now. Cause I cant bear to part with much of my money. How I wish I can just throw all my savings for travel. Hahahas. To visit all the places I want to go. Rah!

My laptop has been showing symptoms of sickness recently. It will hang at least once each time I on it. Oh no poor lappie, please dont die on me. Although you're already like 3 years old, and I really wish for a new lappie, I dont want you to leave me right now. Cause right now, I cant afford a new buddy. Hahahas. So yea, survive! Hokay, that sounds mad, I'm like talking to my laptop?

I need sleep. Goodnight.

Hi all, it's the first day of CNY going to the second. How's it been for all of you? It's been a rather boring one for me. All the usual visits to relatives' houses. All the usual questions asked. The 'oh man, when are they ever going to finish talking and leave' thought. And the 'silent hooray we say to ourselves when someone says, okay let's go!'. It's always an adults talk, children stone session. Unless you're really close with your cousins or uncles and aunties. But that's of course not my case. Hahahas.

I have a thought. What does waiting mean to you all? Does it bring about a happy, sad, painful, torturous or anticipating feeling? There are many times in our lives that we've got to wait. Are you patient most of the times? And if you are, what is it that keeps you willing to wait? Is it that hope that you hold or imagine existing? Or is it the denial of what's not coming? That feeling of if I stop waiting, what if whatever I'm waiting for comes? That fear of the feeling of regret. Maybe. Just a thought.

Oh and how's Valentine's for everyone! How I wish everyone can share the happenings of their 2010 Valentine's with me! I'd love to hear. (: So yea, friends, do share with me kae! Hee.

I'm feeling rather tired right now, but I still feel like watching an episode of Autumn's Concerto. Tomorrow's going to be a day of many guests. With the house filled, with people talking loudly to be heard. Oh did I mention before that I think the gene of talking loudly runs in my mum's family? Hahahas. This was what I noticed whenever all my aunts and uncles gather at my grandma's house for a meal. It will never be a peaceful meal. Because they dont talk, they shout. Hahahas. It's not the kind of angry shout, it's normal talk to them, but they just dont really know that they're speaking louder than normal, or ear-peace volume. Yea. SO sitting at the same table with them talking can give you a major headache. That was what I had during reunion dinner the other day. Hahahas.

Sometimes, I find that I like to read too much into things. It has its good or bad side. But I'd rather I dont read that much into things. Hahahas.

Are there times when you're thinking of something and then it just happens at that moment in time? Amazing feeling isnt it?

Oh the amount of second-hand smoke I take in everyday is a killer. I think my life will get shorter because of the amount of second-hand smoke in me.

I realised that all my entries are like damn messy. This blog really live up to its name of more than random randomness har! :D Cause I simply type whatever comes to my mind. Sometimes after I publish a post, another thought just comes and I'll go back to the post and edit it again. You have no idea how many times I edit the post at times. Hahahas.

Okay goodnight everyone! Hope all your money-earning visits were great! Cheers! :D

Happy CNY and V day everyone! :D

I have no idea what happened. Or what made it happened. After the sleep, it all felt like a dream. But no, it was real. Every single thing was.

I am so going to make spring cleaning happen today. Right after this post! Hahahas. Seriously.

I started to watch Autumn's Concerto, er I think that's the english name, in Chinese it's xia yi zhan xing fu. I've heard a couple of positive comments on that show. And yes, it's a great show! The hot dudes in the show are add an extra plus to the great. Hahahas. ;D

This year, Valentine's Day falls on CNY. Is it good news or not? Perhaps for those who're single, it is. Cause the loneliness felt will not be that great? But for those who have a date, I guess it'll be quite hard to find the time isnt it. Hahahas. Oh I hasnt spent any Valentine's Day in my whole 19 years of life with a proper Valentine before. In this 20th year, there isnt going to be one as well. Oh well, who wants to date me? Hahahas.

Off to vacuum the floor and tidy up the house! And then dinner at clarke quay tonight! :D

It's been long since I slept at 11pm or earlier. Recently I'd wait till 1 plus 2 to go to bed. Sometimes although I'm really tired, I'll still wait for this time to come and then go to bed. Hahahas. Silly yea.

Spring cleaning didnt happen today. I went to meditate in bed and then I was taken to dreamland till 6.30pm. Hahahahhaas. Stay home day is so not fun! ): And damn it, I kind of am wishing for a car now. ): Hahahahas. Oh there's this new mercs that is looks abit like the honda jazz. Looks cute and comfy! Hahahahas. Let's hint to dad. Oh it's 105k. I'm sure he will faint upon hearing that. Okay, it's 1am. I should sleep already.

Oh and now the tickets to Universal Studios are going for 10 bucks. It's just a tour ticket, cant take the rides. Quite a good deal to go now, since it'll be 6 times this price in the future. I wouldnt want to take most of the rides anyway. Hahahas. Hmms, can consider.

And yes I should really sit down and start considering applying for unis alr. NUS's application period is closing on 21 Feb. That is like zomg, damn near! NTU's 28Feb. SMU is end March I think. Hahahas. Shall not miss any. I think I am just gonna apply for all. Yea.. ):

When will the day come? Each time, I lose a little hope. Will the day when all my hopes are lost come?

The thought of doing spring cleaning is there. But the urge to move isnt. Hahahahas. I have nothing to do right now. There's no websites for me to surf. Watching videos makes me feel tired and want to go to sleep again. Hahahas. Oh no. ): Should I go back to sleep? Heehee. It seems like it's been so long since I last saw or talk to my daddd! Hahahas. Okay, I should stay at home tonight.

Boring boring boring. Okay, I think I'm going to erm, lie in bed and stone. Yes, meditate, maybe get enlightened on what I should do in my future. Oh random much, but yes, Chinese New Year is coming. :) Didnt go down to Chinatown to absorb some of the atmosphere. Hahahas. Did I go last year? Or was it the year before? I cant remember. But it's quite nice to drop by there during CNY. :D

Okay damn it, spring cleaning shall start at 3.30pm. Hahahas.

Had a great time shopping today. Although it burnt a huge hole in my pocket. Hahahas. BUT, everything I need is done! 2 new pieces of clothes for new year and a casual pair of shoes! Yepyeps. Tomorrow shall be a stay home day! :D Do some spring cleaning. Okay wait, most probably i'll end up sleeping. Hahahahas. Anyway, it's late. Goodnight everyone.

Sometimes it is the fear of facing what's going to come next that makes you doubt the decision you wish to make.

It is damn shiok to be able to sleep till like afternoon. Had wanted to sleep till 10am only. But when the alarm rang, I just didnt want to get up. Hahahas. Going for some shopping once again! I should get my ass of this chair and go bathe soon. If not I'll be lateeee! Hahahas. Hope to be able to get something today! Oh anw, I just calculated! Total for my driving, I spent around 1.4k. Not including the fees or BTT and FTT and the test itself. Purely what I paid my instructor. Hahahas. Cheaper than school right! I think more worth it lar! I'd thought I spent around 2k but nope, lesser than that! Heh.

Shall update tonight about my shopping trip with my lovely joy and jo! Lalala.

Finally! I am so thankful for everything that happened today. I finally passedddd! I was so happy after that test! I was practically grinning from ear to earrr! :D Thank you for all who had sent me good luck messages in the morning! Heeheehee. One of the reasons that make me feel so relieved after passing my test was that I no longer have to fork out more money to take driving lessons! I forked out about 400 there about to pay for all the recent lessons. That was excluding the 100 bucks my dad sponsored me with, or rather managed to squeeze out from his pocket. Hahahas. My goodness. Another thing is obviously I can finally escape the nagging from my instructor which hasnt given me much ear peace in the past week.

Now that research paper is handed up, driving test is over and done with, I can finally watch shows in peace, go shopping and enjoy new year. But I still have interview next week! Oh and uni applications. ):

My paper has exceeded its 2,500 words limit. Now it's left with editting, arranging of appendices, biblio, content page and executive summary! I must complete everything by 10pm. You think can? But now got my Pan Wei Bo! Hahahas. Oh shucks.

Those three words, I think we said too much.

It's 10:30 in the morning now! First, in less than 24 hours, I will be having my second chance at the driving test again. I really hope that this will be the biggest angbao for the year of 2010. To think of the amount of money I spent during the past 1 week for the lessons. Second, I am less than 24 hours to the time I am supposed to submit my research paper. And I am still not feeling the pressure. However much I wish to go back to bed, I have to complete the paper, by hook or by crook. Third, it's less than 24 hours before the end of all reports! Forth, it's less than 24 hours to when I can start to go shopping! So damn it, let's start now now now!

OMG, damn dumb can! I just realise that half of 2500 is 1250 not 1750! Why didnt anyone correct me in my previous post! Hahahas. So I kept thinking that I'm only halfway through which is so demoralizing! But now that I know I'm only 600 words away, I'm more relieved! Hahahas. Okay, go go go! My aim is to finish by 5pm so that maddy can help me hand in. If not joy will help me tmr morning! Hahahas. Okay, 5 more hours!

After I finish my report, I shall type out all my wishes for tmr. Hahahahas. You all wait kae!

The root of frustration is most often desire. I have been feeling so frustrated about my research paper, about my future. And the root of it is all because I want to do well in it. The more I write my research paper, the more I tell myself how lousy I am. This leads to frustration and thus the lack of motivation to do it. Next, my future. My desire to make it big in the future makes me self-doubt. It is true that I very much want to follow the path I wish to take. But I keep self-doubting myself in terms of whether I will be able to do well at all. Whether I am capable or not. Taking the polytechnic road, I have not regret. However, it has made me lose much motivation along the way. In primary and secondary school, I have always been among the top. As time goes by, throughout the poly years, I see myself dropping in standards. I see how hardworking friends are, but they just cant seem to motivate me. Because it has always been a breeze in the past. I used to think I was above average, but now, I feel that I am just average, like any other people. Many may not know how exactly I am feeling, but seriously, this feeling/ thought is making me feel.. I cant find a word to describe this feeling. Although I know that as long as I work hard, put in much effort, I will be able to get to where I want to be, but the push factor is not there at all. Which is why I wish to take a break from everything. But how contradicting it may be, I do not wish to waste time at all.

I have been reading this pretty inspiring book and I kind of agree with this one part of the book regarding emotional wounds. You know many times, when we suffer from emotional hurt, we talk to friends. This is when friends will normally give you advices and what you should do and what you should not. You will then tend to give yourself a time period where you aim to get over this pain you're feeling. But all these just leads to you getting more pain, because you're constantly reminding yourself of it by trying too hard to get over it. It is most often when we do not try to get over it that it heals faster. Because at the point when we got the wound, it is already in the process of healing. All we need when we are hurt is someone who can tolerate the pain that we're feeling and be there for you, without giving any advices.

Have you ever been in a situation where you looked forward to this one thing so much and then at the end of the day, you couldn't get anything at all? All that is felt is total disappointment. My night has been made far from good. Shall sleep it off.

I have never thought that doing my research paper would be so miserable okay. Plus, there is this certain thought in my mind that has been bothering me so I cant concentrate properly. ARGHS! I am feeling damn miserable now lehs. I managed to type a few paragraphs out but I feel they dont really have quality. Sucks. I hate feeling like that. It's as if there is this feeling of lousiness in yourself.

Anyway can someone enlighten me by telling me for factual stuff if I write it in the same way as it was published, is it considered plagarism??? Like for example the aims of the programme and all.

Crap! I want to do something else. I dont want to do this research paper anymoreeeeeeeeee. ): Arghs arghs arghs. 50% of 2500 words means 1750 words. I am currently at 888! Nice number but not nice compared to 1750. I am halfway through my halfway.

I am wishing secretly that I get to go out tonight. I'm waiting I'm waiting I'm waiting. Rah!

'No man is worth your tears. The one who actually is, will not make you cry.'

I am currently feeling extremely lethargic from the very filling dinner I had after surviving on 1 kueh balu since morning. My eyes are closing. My mind is hurting. To make myself feel a little better, I think I should at least look for some examples for research papers for reference tomorrow. Tomorrow, I am going to give my very very full attention to my research paper. DEAL.

In life, I guess there are things that will be separated from you, be it a person, a situation or something, so that you learn how to let go. It may just be the beginning of something new, something better.

Ahh, I am seriously tired. This time it's not an excuse. My mouth is opening at a rate of erm once per 5 seconds. Hahahahas! Off to sleep. My aim is to wake up at 8am tomorrow morning and complete at least 50% of the paper tomorrow. RAH! YINGQIU, YOU CAN DO IT! :D

I love to meet up with friends for simple catch up sessions. (: Ytd with Serene. Omg, I really love the fact that we live like 5 mins apart from each other only! I'm so gng to miss these void deck times when you're gone in US! ): We can seriously talk about anything under the sun, or rather moon! Hahahahas! We talked for like almost 3 hours ytd lehs! (:

Today with Jojo. It was so random. We thought about looking for each other for shopping at the same time! Hahahas. And yes there goes my time supposedly reserved for research paper. But yes, we had a good time at the Robinsons sales again! 2nd time there! And that Burberry sales which consist of mainly nothing. Coming out of it and laughing at all the people queuing to get in. Hahahahas! (:

And then at night with my lovely sh and wy. (: I was so tired by the time I met these girls. Had a great time racking our brains together for wy's school assignment. A simple sitdown session at Mac. The usual.

Apart from all these, my day sucked today. Seriously. From driving lesson to getting scolded by my daddy for nothing. I know he meant well. I know all he wanted was to see us at home when he reaches home everyday. But, as much as I love quality family time, I need time with my friends as well. And I already informed someone in the family, just that the message was not relayed. Damn. Angry shit. But fine, I accept the fact that everyone has bad days. Oh and my instructor kind of look down on me. He thinks I wont be able to pass the test on this second try. Maybe my attitude is the problem. I really dont care anymore. But maybe I should reflect.

Although right now, DBS and POSB kind of are the same, I still prefer POSB. In terms of queue management they are definitely better. In terms of waiting time, definitely lesser. I dread going to the bank everytime. Having to queue up is such a chore. I remember last year, I went to POSB to exchange for new notes during the near CNY season and it was such a breeze. But this year, I actually waited for almost an hour. Although they served you like biscuits and water while you're waiting, the attitude of the staff sucks as well. None of them smiled. Totally spoil the whole banking experience. Perhaps after studying about service, you just expects more from service providers and you just cannot tolerate situations like this.

The time I spent in the bank queuing up was enough for the 2 aunties queuing up behind me, who were strangers at first, to become friends and they started to talk about their parents. And then it moved on to their kids, then their grandchildren and finally their maids. Oh and I learnt from listening to their conversation that Indonesian maids are better. Hahahas. Something new. According to them, they are cheaper and more hardworking and honest. Credibility not guaranteed though. I generally dont really like the idea of having a maid. It was even more irritating when this auntie behind me kept knocking into me. Like she kept walking straight into me as if it will make the queue move faster. Grrr.

Oh have I mentioned why POSB was much better? They had a queue specially for new notes exchange. Whereas DBS only has one queue for everything.

Another observation was 99% of the people in the bank were either housewives or aunties and uncles. I was the remaining 1%. Hahahahas.

Driving was alright today, apart from the fact that I was kind of pissed off near the end of the lesson when my instructor started to nag. But overall, I think I was not really rusty. I should sleep earlier tonight. Having morning driving lessons sucks. And now that I just had lunch, I feel extremely sleepy. ):

Rewarding myself to an episode of a show and then start with my research paper! As much as I'd love to take an afternoon nap, I cant. Because once I get into bed, the next time I get out of it will be 7pm tonight. Hahahas. *I think there is quite a high possibility of me getting into dreamland once I start my research paper. We shall see. HAHAS!

(I gave in to having an afternoon nap at 4.30pm.) BUT I was discipline enough to wake up at like NOW and not sleep till 7pm. (: Such an achievement. Now, I shall slowly go to the toilet and then walk back to my room, pick up my notes and start doing my damn paper. Yes, I am going to start. Just give me another minute. Oh shucks, I forgot I need to bathe. Hahahas. Another minute spent here is just another minute wasted. My time is precious, so kthxbye.

I should really be going to bed soon. But I've been having really bad nights recently. Bad dreams and all. Really bad. ):

Okay, goal for tomorrow - do my research paper. This is a must. Really left with not much time. I drag on and on and never accomplish anything. Worse, I dont know how to start at all. This is partly what makes me have the thought of 'I dont want to study anymore.'

Should I really save up for an overseas trip? I cant bear to part with the money you know.

Anyway, I think this space is getting kind of boring already. But I just cant fight the temptation to type something here. anything will do.

My second chance is coming in less than 7 days' time. The previous time, I've arranged for so many practices but ended up screwing it due to nerves. So this time, I shall adopt a 'dont really care' approach. Hahahas. 5 lessons before the test. Let's chill. I have to. Let's just hope this time, I dont screw up. And hope that I havent gone too rusty after 2 months. Tomorrow's the first lesson again. All the best to myself.

Somehow, somewhere in me, there is this 'I dont want to study anymore' thought. As much as I hate it, I cant stop it from popping out. I know I shouldnt have such a thought at all. But oh wells.

Xlb outing this friday! Cant waitttt! Steamboat once again! (: It's been long.

And I want to go to the Singapore Airshow laaaa! ):

Okay here goes, new skin! I dont like it very much. So maybe I will change it again later. Hahahahaas. The colours are like dull and dead. ): Make my life more lifeless only.

Updated @ 11:51pm - Okay, I found the almost perfect skin. LOUBOUTINS! Muhahahahahas. But. I dont really like the pink background. Okay, I'm fussy. Hahahaas. But not bad la. Settling for this. (:

i am going nuts! ): this research paper is killing me. I totally dont know how to go about approaching it. And I dont know what to ask at that 15 mins consultation tomorrow. howbowmow! ): I am flooding myself with papers right now, in the hope that something productive will come up from this.

each time the phone rings, i raise a little hope. but for today, it's rang so many times, and i'm disappointed each time. this sucks.

everytime i think of which uni i want to go to, i have a big headache. like massive one okay. ): and once i start thinking of it, i cant stop. double ):. Anyway, i think i'm just going to apply for NTU, NUS and SMU and see which ones wish to accept me. Hahahas. just take whatever comes la. local uni will be good enough. since that's what many are telling me. hahahhaas.

okay, i must stop thinking about this before my head explodes. i must start ANALYSING my research for research paper. but now it's 1am alr lehs. maybe i should do it tmr. HAHAHAHAHAS! yes, tmr! i must come up with a chain of questions to flood my tutor for 15 mins. (: