Today's baking session was considered a failure. Because the cupcake paper was too filmsy! Made all my cupcakes go out of shape! Hmph! Either I get the cupcake tray tomorrow or harder cupcake paper. Actually I find the current one a wee bit big. Maybe I should make smaller ones. Okay, shall hunt for the paper tmr. Jojo is joining me! Hopefully Nick can join too. Dinner with the girls tomorrow! So so so long since all 4 of us can be present! So I'm happy and excited! :D:D:D But we are facing a difficult question! Where to go! ):

I havent been watching videos in a while due to the screwed up routine of my everyday life. So I shall watch it later. After I finish my French homework after I bathe! Hahahahas.

Oh btw, I finally signed up for twitter! You know I've been wanting to sign up for so long but everytime I'm at the sign up page, something will distract me and I'll end up closing the windows. Hahahhas. So everyone with twitter, add moi! @yingqiugoh If not it's so boring there.

I would like to watch the movie When In Rome. Anyone? Hot dude in a show adds a plus to the movie. ;D

7 more minutes to April's Fool.

I actually let you have the satisfaction of knowing that I'm always here waiting.

Why must brown sugar only be sold in packets of 1kg?!?! Now how am i going to finish that packet. ): Just spent 20 over bucks on baking ingredients. And I bet there'll be alot left over. Arghs. Anyway, I'm going to try mixing 2 recipes together. hahahahas. Hopefully it turns out well!

Hello, mr lizard, why must you die outside my room? And why have you shrunk so much from morning till now? Why hasnt anyone clear you away? ): Ayes, the first thing I woke up to this morning was the dead lizard outside my room. When I was leaving house, ants were invading it. Now that I'm home after a whole day, no more ants, and the corpse has shrunk by like almost half.

I'm going to bake cupcakes tomorrow! :D Shall try doing the icing. Hope it turns out good. So I'll be all prepared for Friday! Hahahaas.

I wasted one entire afternoon by accompanying Jo and Se down to SIM to settle their application stuff. It being the second last day of application, the queue was exceptionally long as compared to last week. Last week I went and left in a breeze. But today we sat there for an hour plus waiting.

I'm going to turn in early tonight. Didnt have a good night's sleep last night. Compensating it up tonight. Goodnight everyone!

One day, I'm going to get so tired of this. It's happened one too many times. I think I'm gonna leave it all up to you from now on. I am already getting tired. The more I think, the more tired I get. The more I try, the more disappointed I get. Why do I feel like I am losing myself in the process? I dont even know where I stand. Or do I even have a stand. Sometimes, I get so frustrated I just want to vent all my anger out. But damn, the heart goes all soft when the apologies come flooding in. So whatever, it's all up to you now. Really.

I just woke up and it's now 3pm. I need to leave house at perhaps 5.45pm to drop by popular and then off to KAP. Not going to be home for dinner again today. Here comes another round of nagging from the folks.

The alcohol rashes hasnt gone down. Arghs.

I hope I can start working soon! Money needs to come in already! Oh and I have French homework to complete today! At least while I'm lazing around, I'm still learning something and not just lazing around. :D

I just reached home. Time check, 5.11am. Hahahas. That's the great thing about having friends who live within the estate. Or rather, the area? Went to Wy's hse to celebrate My's bdae. Didnt really have a plan though, we ended up just randomly thinking of drinking games and drank.

Right now - the after effects of alcohol - rashes.

Had a good time laughing with this bunch of friends. Although my wish for the night didnt come true yet again, at least I still spent it happily. :D Oh and I had a roller coaster ride home. Lols.

Slept too much in the afternoon, now I still feel rather energetic. Arghs. Shall try to sleep now.

Would you rather be in the light, knowing things you may not wish to know, or would you rather be kept in the dark?

still sick as a pig. the nose wont stop running, the cough comes and goes whenever it likes. and i feel like i just want to lie down. so i'm doing just that after typing this post. so that i can have some energy to get through tonight. popped 2 panadols down, hopefully i get better. i guess the yi du gong du yesterday did not work. HAHAHAHAS!

What a lazy Saturday! Went for my little nephew's baby shower in the early afternoon. Oh when I looked at the baby, I went 'is it a girl or a boy'. Oh of course it was a thought in the mind, I thought it was kind of rude to ask out. And then after that I reckoned it was a boy from they way they dress him up in blue. And I was right. When I came home, I asked my parents. My dad went, 'you shouldve used the most direct way to find out.' LOLS. mad dad.

Met with the girls after that. It was a totally unplanned day. We just sat around chat and find peace in the day. LOLS. Earth Hour felt great too. :D

On Thursday, had supper with my awesome friend of 13 years! And yes we never fail to talk for at least 3 hours. :D:D:D I'm glad many loves my snickerdoodles by the way! I forgot to bring some for the girls today!

On Friday, I felt how feeling ugly feels. LOLS.

Anyways, I'm off to some ANTM before sleep!

Hoping for a great Sunday. :D No more disappointment, please...

Je ne sais pas comment faire mes devoirs français.

French is getting more and more difficile. Et enfin, I found out how to write I dont know in French. Hahahahas. Je ne sais pas. Soon you all will start to read my blog and go har already. Hahahahas. Mixing French and English.

Maintenant, je vais regarder les vidéos. (:

Au revoir! For now. Hahahahas.

P.S. You all can ignore this post. Lols.

You know the feeling that feels like you dont know if you really want it or not? That in-between feeling?

MBS just called me and I decided that I shall give it a try by asking them if they can make arrangement for the month of April. Since from May to end June I wont be having French class. Cause thinking of it, I dont want to give up French class for work la. So yea, if they cant make arrangement then I wont be able to take up the job and I shall then look for other jobs. That's the plan.

Now I feel sian to go down for the on-site visit for the event job today. Hahahahas. Oh man.

Sometimes maybe when we change our mindset, our perspective to something, we might be happier.

I like to sleep. Sleep puts off thoughts momentarily. But sometimes, just sometimes, these thoughts are so scary, they creep into our dreams too.

It's been raining and raining for days. I know, I complaint when the weather is super hot, and now the sky decide that 'fine, since you complain so much, i'm giving you more rain.' I wish for the weather to be just perfect. Like neither hot nor cold, slightly breezy would be good. (:

Nearly drowned on my way to French class this morning. Okay, some exaggeration there. Clever me decided that SIM doesnt need the original documents to prove that the photocopies are true. The common sense went into hiding. Went to Great World for lunch and then B&J. It's free cone day! I've never queued for one before, so this year i decide to try! And this year, they decide to not offer my fav chunky monkey, and the cone tasted sort of weird. I was telling Joy maybe they're gng-to-expire-soon cones. Hahahas! I had chocolate macadamia and I threw half of it away. The part with the cone, cause the cone tasted really bad.

Had to head home to pick up my portfolio before heading to SIM. I seriously dont understand the need to certify everything as true copy. Hmms. Oh and I saw this interesting scene. There was this group of people, standing outside the school, just along the road there smoking. And they all have similar expressions. Oh and I dont think all of them know each other. They just looked like they were being punished to smoke. Hahahahas. Went over to explore West Coast Plaza thereafter. It was a place where we found peace. Hahahahas.

It's a wonder how someone can put a smile on your face and take it away all so easily. Hahahahas.

Anyway, I shall lay out the pros and cons of the job tmr. Dilemma. Sian ttm. I hate making decisions like that. Mais... still have to make.

For once, I'm going to sleep at 12. Bon nuit everyone!

These are snickerdooooodles! Chanced upon the recipe online so decided to give it a try. Thought they were cookies, turn out they tasted like the popeye's biscuit. But with more taste and less salty. Pretty good. (: Who wantsssss! You know I love the process of baking, but I dont like to eat what I bake, although they are nice. Hahahahas. Seriously. Niceness guaranteed! :D

Today's interview turned out alrights. But right now I have a decision to make. Damn coordinating time sucks. Really. Arghs. Dad says dont take up the job. ): Do you think this is a good opportunity? Like one that shouldnt be lost? Oh for those who dont know, I applied for a job at Marina Bay Sands.

You officially has less than 25 hours more to prove your words. Just dont forget.

I have officially realised how fat I am. Hahahahas. I shall try to not eat so much, try not to eat fast food, try not to eat chicken. Shucks la, getting rounder and rounder. Damn.

Hello people, please do not say the weather is very good or the sun is really bright when the weather is truly very good kae! Cause I've proved over the past few days that whenever someone said that, it will start pouring like nobody's business in the next few hours. Proven okay.

I am finally done with preparing the stupid documents for Uni admissions. Troublesome to the max. I'm going to submit them on Tuesday. Oh and i just realised that i totally wasted the $3.10 on printing the not yet complete result slip the other time. ): I think it has to be printed again. Or will they give it to us on graduation? Oh grad ceremony is to be held in May. That's like so damn long away.

Interview tomorrow. I'm scared. :S You know I actually respect people who have the courage to go after what they want. I think I'm sort of a coward. Like there are things I want to try, but I'll think about so many things, get scared of so many things and end up not trying it at all. Sighs. I can tell people that they should just try out things if they really want it, but I cant even do it myself. ):

Everytime I see those elderly picking out cans from dustbins, my respect for these people just gets more. You know, I once saw a man spit into a dustbin and a while later, an old lady opened the dustbin and pick out a can from the dustbin. And she actually dont mind because all these will fetch her money. The money may not be much but it better than nothing. Maybe this teaches me to not be so mindful over how much a job pays me. Hahahas. Ayes, but I still mind la. Tsk.

Was looking through tumblr and chanced upon these 2 pictures. So cute. Lols.

I believe every. single. word.

I realise that all the things I want now, money can solve. Damn. But right now, I have no money. ): I want a car, i want to travel, i want to buy labels, i want to be able to pay for my next module of French peacefully, i want to go to uni without thinking that money will be a burden on my parents' mind. ):

Tday was a day of walking walking and more walking again. And why must Singapore Arts Museum look so much like the National Museum of Singapore? Lols. Totally felt dumb having to use a map to get around Singapore.

Tried out MOF for dinner as Muthu's Curry had a queue. Had a quite a lot of great comments on MOF so decided to give it a try. But I was disappointed. Hahahahas. Not fabulous. But was okay. I still love Sushi Tei more.

Even kids know what promises are. They are words that guarantee actions.

Parkway-ed with Jojo to accompany her change moolahs to HKD. The rates now are so good compared to last year! I changed mine at a rate of 5 i think. Now it's 5.52! Rahs!

Went for eyebrow trimming after that and the aunties there yada yada away for nearly an hour! My stomach was growling like mad and they just wont stop talking. The only thought I had at that moment was when can i escape from this place. Hahahahas.

Oh and the experience at the photo developing shop was worse. The attitude of the auntie at the shop was mad rude! >:( First, Jo just casually asked the auntie if we can use thumbdrive. And the auntie dao-ed her at first then barked at her, saying 'queue up first can anot'. Seriously, barked.

There was this maid at the screen where you choose your photos, and apparently she dont really understand what the auntie was trying to say. At first, she was told to key in her name and contact number. She stared at the auntie clueless cause she just blabbered some instructions and walked off to do other things. But after a while, the maid figured it out herself. Then the auntie instructed her on how to choose the photos. And yes the maid dont understand once again. And yes the auntie walked off once again and when she came back and saw the maid standing there, not seeming to know how to go about doing it, she said 'you dont get it is it!' The maid got so pissed off, she said she didnt want to develop anymore and walked off.

The lady queuing in front of us and behind the maid got pissed from all these and walked to the neighbouring shop. Then came our turn! I was tapping on the screen with a little more than gentle force. And I can swear that the force i used was still lighter than what the auntie used. She actually told me to not tap so hard. The screen actually shows please wait a moment when you click to the next page and cause it was sort of slow, we tried to click when the please wait a moment windows was there. She stood beside us and kept repeating wait a moment. At first we thought she was telling the people queuing behind us to wait, until we realise she kept repeating it and no one was behind us. HAHAHAS. And obviously she was ignored. Super horrible attitude. Didnt have a pleasant time there, and the fact that the photos only cost 20cents each didnt really make up for it! Grr.

And I have the whole room to myself all till Sunday! Yayyeee! :D

I was curious about the prices of Tiffany and Co stuff. Cause I always see many buying it as gifts for others. So I decided to check out their website. And guess what, most of their jewelleries are only sterling silver. And the typical pendant where they write please return to tiff and co cost 115USD. That is around 160SGD. For a piece of silver?!?! I'd rather go to Lee Hwa or Goldheart, top up few more ten bucks and get a white gold with diamond. Hahahas. But I must admit, the key pendants from Tiff & Co are gorgeous! Cost a bomb too. Hahahas. When I'm 21 (that's nxt year!!!), I want the key I get to have lots and lots of diamonds! :D Maybe I should go tell my mum already, so that she can start saving from now? More than enough time yea? I'm so thoughtful, I know. :D

Going to the East early tomorrow, then to the North in the afternoon. It's going to be tiring. I should sleep now. Hahahas. And yaye, I'm going to develop my photos tomorrow!!! I love developing photos! Because yea, photos capture that moment in time. ;D

My dear resume is collecting dust. It's time to blow off the dust and touch up on it. Hahahahas.

Now the SIM website forbids me to enter the application page. Wthhhhhhh. ))): See when I finally settle down and want to do things, they dont allow me to. How nice.

Now that I read my resume again, I realise how stupid some information in it is. HAHAHAHAS. Tried to cut it to 2 pages but cant. ):

The craving for diamonds is back again. Shucks.

Would you choose a boring and meaningless job or a tiring job?

Boring boring boring. I shall go nap.

Sushi Tei is fabulous! :D Took quite a while for me and Maddy to figure out how the hell to get to Sushi Tei at Taka. Turns out it was not within the mall itself. Hahahas. It was secluded at the back of the mall. She says she always end up walking unnecessary distances when she goes out with me. Hello, not my fault. Hahahahas. Had a really satisfying dinner! :D Hotate are loves! :D:D:D

Finally completed SMU's application. The SIM screwed up. Gotta call them tomorrow to ask them what's up. Now I'm left with NUS's financial aid application. And the NTU one if it's not closed yet. Hahahahas.

Aimed to sleep at 1230 but obviously failed. Shall sleep now. Goodnight! :D

Maggi Mee isnt as good as it used to be. ): I still remember how much I used to love maggi mee in the past. It was a time when you'd go for no other instant noodle brands except maggi! Hahahahas. Actually I dont really like to eat instant noodles now. Sometimes I'd rather not eat than have instant noodles. Lols. But somehow it was the first thing on my mind when I woke up this morning afternoon.

Arghs, I really feel sick whenever I think of the fact that I need to complete my SMU and SIM applications. Hahahas. Maybe I'll do it at 2:30pm later. Tomorrow. Hahahas, I cant believe I'm still procrastinating even though I'm no longer in school. Oh well, after all this is still school matters right. Hahahahas.

A part of me still doesnt want to work. There's actually lots of things for me to do. For example, packing my wardrobe (hahahas), doing up the clearance post, completing the damn uni applications, doing my French homework, blah blah blah. But I'd rather sit in the chair and grow fat or get out of this house and walk aimlessly than do all of these. Hahahahas.

Was watching the dudes show on Channel U just now. the 8pm show. Not sure of the title of the show. The previous 2 weeks, there was this section of the show where the dudes are supposed to answer some knowledge questions. And srsly, in my opinion, these people have no brains? They asked questions that secondary school students should be able to answer but these university students cant answer and they came up with rather crappy answers which doesnt made sense at all. I think there was one question on why is yawning contagious. And there was another on why do guys sometimes shiver when they finish peeing. Hahahas. Oh I remember so vividly how the guy tried to make up some stupid answers to this question. He said something like oh because the guy's organs are outside of their body. HAHAHAS. Hello, where is the link?

This week, they had them do like dirty jobs. Literally dirty. Like pest terminators, garbage collectors, and catching bullfrog. I think the last one was damn disgusting. I hate frogs ttm. Garbage collector is quite a sad thing too. Sometimes we shouldnt hate the Bs so much cause they really do a great job in these industries where no Singaporeans will want to work in.

I just read about this artist named Pricasso who paints with his dick. Absurd but his works are quite decent. Hahahahas! But seriously, what was he thinking when he thought of this idea man. People are getting more and more absurd these days.

Just got home from Ulu land Sembawang! Had lunch at Sun Plaza and after that I went to walk around the mall, if you even call it a mall. Lols. Their Popular bookstore is like the oldest I've seen so far! Most populars have undergone renovation already, but theirs not yet! And guess what, their Library still has the push and pull door!!! It's like omg ancient ttm! Hahahas. Anyway, there's nothing interesting there. I gave up after a while and came back to Lot 1 instead. And I got a French dictionary! It is going to be my SOS from now on. Hahahahas.

Are there times when you really want to know the answer but deep inside you actually fear that the answer you get may not be what you want to hear? Then, will you still ask the questions? Will you rather be in doubt or know and be hurt?

They say if you wish for something bad enough, it will happen. Seriously?

Jocelyn - read the title of this post! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!

Ho my gosh, I just finished my French homework! Like finally! It's getting harder and harder! I was staring at blanks where my mind went blank too! Hahahaas. The worst thing is that some of the instructions I cant even understand! And online translator isnt really helping, considering the weird phrases they come up with sometimes! Hahahahas. I guess it's about time to invest in a French dictionary! Lols.

The limit to this slacking life is reaching. You know the feeling of wanting to end this damn slacking life but not wanting to work at all. I believe that's what you call unrealistic. Hahahahas. Arghs. Anyway, I shall keep a lookout for some jobs luh. Shall not lead this kind of life anymore. Kind of sucks already. Furthermore, most friends found jobs which means less time to come out and slack with me. ):

I should stop sleeping at 8pm and waking up at 10pm. Makes it even harder to sleep during the proper hours.

Finally going to satisfy my dimsum craving tomorrow! At cheenatown! (:

Just tell me everything is going to be alright.

Had a visit to SIM today to find out more about what they offer. The University of Manchester sounds really good but it's a pity they dont offer full-time course and I dont really want to be a part-time student. So I think I'm settling for University of London. The person there told us that UOL is actually very recognised in their econs and the passing rate for their econs is very low. Sounds scary can. Lols. But I'm kind of more interested to the Business Degree. Let me think about it more. Hahahas. I am still hoping that I can get into a local uni la, this is like the last resort if all else fails. Hahahas.

Once again, we went to fly kite! At WCP. Hahahas. The last time was a failure. This time was hmms, better? But we still didnt manage to get the stupid kite to stable in the sky! And once again, it rained. Hahahas. ): Kite-flying is such a tiring activity. I shall upload the videos some other time. Super hilarious. Hahahahas.

It's 1.30am right now and I just dont feel like sleeping. Lols. So I came up with this entertainment which is to read through all my posts on this blog. And gosh, my English is so bad. I realised most of my sentences doesnt really flowed. Hahahas. And I actually typed 'I am a people.' Why didnt any of you pointed it out??? Hahahas. I read the posts dated July and August 2008 and I really wanted to laugh at myself. That was the getting over it period or rather the getting to know the truth period. All that anger when I chanced upon things that told me the truth. I can still remember everything so vividly. In so many of my posts, I typed I'm so glad I found out the truth earlier and that I'm moving on. But in the end? Hahahas. The phrase on time will heal everything? I think it's rubbish. Hahahas. It was only till someone else takes up the space for thought that the hurt gets less painful. But the cycle will repeat itself again. I bet after marriage it will still do. Just look at the Jack Neo's case. Oh talking about that, everytime I see news on it, I really want to laugh. Seriously, Jack Neo?!?! Hahahaas. I shall not comment any further. Back to the revisiting of my blog archives, I shall continue reading the rest whenever I'm bored. And laugh at myself. (:

Gdnight.

This photo makes the perfect wallpaper. (: Super nicely taken.

I attempted to pack my floor today. Hahahas. Okay I know packing the floor sounds weird. But my floor was really messy! Magazines were thrown all over, the brochures for uni courses, my bags, cushions, newspapers, clothes. Yea, literally everything. So yes, I was in the packing mood today, so everything is back into its place. but why does the floor still look so not spacious??!?!?! ):

Results for this semester is out. My GPA increased by 0.01. Pathetic much but at least it did not drop or stay stagnant. Yep. And Sinee just reminded me about passed with commendation for internship. Why didnt I have it?!?!?! My report wasnt that bad what! HMPH.

Reminder to myself - I have to submit application for SIM by next week.

Today is Friday.

I was looking through the list of top 150 wedding songs of 2010. And I saw boom boom pow by Black eyed peas on the list. Hahahahas. Like wth? Imagine you're at a wedding and this song comes on. I'll laugh. Oops.

I think this dress is gorgeous. The lady in it too.

Till later.

The fried potato we had. Kind of tasted like soft potato chips. Oh anyway, I think the content of the banner behind me sounds kind of funny. Seems like Singlish went to M'sia too!

Do you know that in a Peranakan house, there are 2 staircases. One on the left and one on the right. One is for the men, the other for the ladies and children. I cant rmb which is which though. Interesting. (:

Swings!

Their trishaws. Some were nicely decorated. But some looked abit like erm, funeral transport. (Pardon me for saying this. :X)

The problem with 2 people going is that in the photos it's only either one of us. So we came up with the idea of trying to capture us with the landmarks/sceneries in the background. Took us lots of tries. I think we looked like idiots while doing it. Hahahas.

The fruit sorbet was awesome!

This was the first traffic light we saw after like %*@^*(@ hours of bus ride. We were so excited when we see it! Hahahas!

I tried to combine my Malacca photos into a collage but kind of failed cause it kept hanging my comp. Maybe not failed but rather I gave up. Hahahas. So I'm just going to upload a few nicer ones here. Above photos are in reverse order. Hahahs. Lazy to move them. The rest are at facebook alrights! (: Malacca I feel is a place where it's enough to just visit once. Like a I'vebeenhere thing you know? Hahahas. We finished all the cultural places within a few hours of the first day and that meant alot of walking. The weather didnt make it any better. Had chicken rice balls for lunch. And the verdict was that loose rice tastes better. But the chicken was good. (: Dinner was a cheap deal! SGD5.50 and we filled our tummies to the brim. 7 siewmais, some potato thing, a plate of char kway teow and chendol! Went for Thai massage (I know I shouldve went when I was in BKK the other time right! Hahas) which was great. I love it when each and every of the bones inside me has the cracking sound. Shiok ttm. But there were some sensitive parts and some real painful parts.

Second day was supposedly dedicated to shopping but we didnt really buy anything cause there wasnt really much things to buy. I woke up with my left eye swollen. Totally couldnt open it. But it got better as time passes. Walked around the mall, went for some peranakan food and then back to the hotel to wait for the coach! Oh and never try the bubble tea there, it sucks. Hahahas. And it caused me a torturous bus ride thereafter. HAHAHAHAS.

Anyway, now I have like bus sickness. After the bus rides to and fro French lesson today, I feel sick. Must be the very very long bus rides recently.

I have this sudden idea to do up my noticeboard. I want to like pin pictures of the landmarks of countries I've been to on it. And maybe of places that I want to go as well. Wait till I develop my photos! Hehh. I think I'm gonna try to save up for a trip at the end of this year. Maybe to Taiwan. Afterall, it's on my wishlist and I'm supposed to fulfill it this year. Then next year off to Japan Hokkaido. I hope the whole of 761 can go together! Would be cool isnt it!

I think a few more weeks of slacking and I'll be so sick of this slacking life. So probably will start looking for a job. But I dont really like the idea of being tied down by work. ): Esp those that you have to work till night or on weekends. Hahahas.

I'm back from the land of red houses! Hahahas. Lots of walking and eating (due to the ever hungry Jojo). Thank goodness the guide on our way there gave us a simple map and told us where to go, if not we would be so totally lost. Hahahas. We couldnt see the red buildings from the hotel! The mall was blocking them totally! We had lots of meals, walked a while and I start to hear, I'm hungry. Hahahas. Faints. And each time we eat, this girl eats like 2-3 mouths and she says I'm full. Lols.

Shall upload the photos tomorrow. Feeling tired now and I've to wake up early for French lesson tomorrow morning! Bon nuit!

I've got to wake up at about 6am tomorrow morning and I still dont feel like going to bed yet. Hahahas. Just finished packing my stuff after much nagging from mum. Everything I need should be in already. Yea, I think so. Shall watch some shows before I go to bed. Goodnight everyone! :D

Why do we let pride get to us so easily sometimes? Why do people have to judge? Why cant we ignore all the judgements we get from others? Or rather the negative ones. Accept the positive ones. Because they're not just words of comfort to make you feel better. They are genuine. Tell yourself that you're beautiful and accept that fact. Really.

Jojo - Sry i didnt return your call yesterday! ): I'll make it up during that 4 hours ride tomorrow morning kae! (:

Dont you guys think that calling your boyfriend 'boyfriend' and your girlfriend 'girlfriend' is just weird??? hahahas. No offense to those who do that. Just a thought cause I just chanced upon it and as a reader I find it weird. Hahahahas.

I finished Autumn Concerto today. Found the ending abit lame and short. Like trying hard to end the story? Yea. But overall, it's quite a nice show la. Jocelyn stereotyped this show as not nice because Vanness Wu is in it. HAHAHAHAS.

Every night we lie in bed and tell ourselves how everything will turn out fine. Trying so hard to convince ourselves from what we don't want to believe in. Maybe that's why they say sleep it off and you'll feel better.

Many times things happen. They come unpredictably. They may be bad news that come crashing down onto our already not so perfect lives. How should we react? Should we console ourselves that things will turn out fine? Or should we welcome it with open arms? I think the former makes us feel happier. Whatever it is, stay strong.

Have you ever said something and regret it the very next moment? Have you ever felt like it's all your fault when actually no one is blaming you? And you start to say people are blaming you? Whatever. Some people just dont know what they are doing. If you want to prove something, show it using actions, not words. Because words dont get you trust. It was your actions that broke the trust and they still are doing the same. So if trust is what you want, show that you are bloody worth it. Those words just seems like words. Fk, I dont like seeing the disappointment you have caused. Now you get whatever shit you wanted but you dont know how people are feeling because of what you did. Use your bloody brain and open your eyes.

All of you should watch this man. Laughed till I almost fell off the chair. HAHAHAS. I think this episode is still the best. (:

Today was total suayness day. On my way to French class, there was this accident on the expressway, thus causing jam. Then on my way back home, there was another accident causing another jam. Also on the expressway. Hahahas. Today, the expressway wasnt really express.

Oh and the movie Dear John sucks big time. It was a story with NO climax at all. Seriously. The 2 hours was a torture. Shouldve listened to Chel's friends' advice. Hahahas.

And I came home and saw this piece of paper on the table that wrote on govt service with my name on it. So it's my driving license. Obviously no one helped me received it, thus the notification letter. And what's worse, someone actually put the dirty pot cover over the paper and now it's stained with curry. Yea, that shows how much my license means to whoever did it. ):

Other than these, companion today was good. Did some shopping once again. Yeps. Am tired already. Goodnight everyone!

Our garden. (:

Slept way too much today. Woke up at 3pm and fell asleep again at 8pm till 9pm. Having nothing to do sure is making me tired. Hahahas. French lesson early morning tomorrow and I think I cant sleep. ): Howwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. Should I watch another episode of Glee? And I hate taking the bus in the morning. So crowded! But I'll get a seat, it's just the getting down that's hard. I shall watch another episode. LOLS. Goodnight!

The word promise shouldnt be used so often unless one is confident that it can be delivered. Otherwise, it all feels like something that you can no longer look forward to and be taken seriously.

Blame the insecurities, blame the thoughts, blame everything except the stupidity.

Hello everyone! Had our first French lesson today! I kind of forgot like most of the things I've learnt in school luh. And people in the class seems to know quite alot. But oh well, it's supposed to be a beginner's course anyway. Was quite surprised that most of the people in the class are like married adults. And they want to learn French because their spouse is a french. Cool, the amount of money and time you've to put in for your other half. Hahahas. And they were all from different nationalities. Japanese, German, Indonesian, Australian, New Zealanders (are they called this?), and this venetian (not sure, but i think so. hahahas.)? Oh and I realised that the textbook and workbook are in full french. Not a single English word in it. Hahahahas. Hmms.

It's a stay home wednesday tomorrow. And I think I'm falling sick. So better stay at home. It's the best way to save money anyway. Hahahas.

I like it when they come unexpected. But I just dont like the process of waiting and at the end, it's not there.

Walked 5.6km today! Within 4 hours! It seems really fast today. The last time, I seemed to have took a longer time! Anyway it was great to sweat it out. Although the sun was very bad, it totally burnt me. We smacked on damn alot of sunblock! With whitening function one somemore! Hahahas. I think I didnt really turn dark la. Thankfully! Oh and we couldnt find nice seeds to buy too. No watermelon, no sunflower. Nothing. ): Am totally shag now, so I'm going to turn in early for the first lesson I'm going to have tomorrow morning! To think that I'm actually going to wake up at 7 plus to prepare for such an early lesson! The amount of money I put in shall be the push factor here. Hahahahas.

Goodnight everyone. I'm kind of excited for this Sunday's Malacca trip! (:

And everyone is going to HK. ): I want to go too! Anyone willing to squeeze me into their luggage? Please. Hahahas.

I've given the Taiwan trip really serious thoughts. And I think I'm not going to go for it. Right now, I really have to place priorities on how I spend my money. I cant just dont care anymore. I had this thought that oh I can spend this money and I can simply save it back. But maybe not yet. Probably a while more. Just not now. So yea, not going. ):