I woke up this morning feeling so damn pissed. I was so angry I wanted to smash everything within sight. Seriously, it was to that extent. 2 years ago on this exact day, I thought everything was finally working my way. But no. And 2 years later, I am thinking about how fucked up my life is right now. Wouldnt say in all aspects, but certain. Through all these, I realised how patient I can get, how far I can go. But there is a limit to all these. I'm not sure for how many more times I can withstand this. If this is punishment of any sort, for whatever wrong I've done, then seriously it's enough. I can literally feel myself crumbling. And then I think about how sucky is it to be me.

To you my friend, I totally understand how you're feeling. I do hope that the sentence 'Things will turn for the better' will help. Even if it doesnt chase away all those thoughts, it does help a little sometimes. I will pray for you to be safe and for you to be able to pursue the life that you've planned out for yourself. For the time being, please smile. :D

When I'm in bad moods, retail therapy makes me feel so good. Especially when I spend alot. But luckily for today, I stopped myself before damage is done.