As days go by, I start feeling lousy. At first I didnt feel anything. I think to myself, does it matter where we study at? At the end of the day, isnt it a piece of paper afterall? But when the folks start to keep asking so all the local u rejected me, I start to think am I that lousy to not even be eligible for a place in the local u? Why does my folks keep hoping that I get into a local u? Then I thought, is it because of the money? Because they kept asking me about the school fees and how. You know what? I seriously dont know. If I have to earn it, then fine, I will work while studying to get the amount needed. I dont want to borrow. I dont want to have any debts. I just wish to not be asked this question again. Just stop putting pressure on me.

Like I said, work had gotten the best of me recently and I havent been home for dinner for what seems like a long time. You all know that I value family time. That I will specially leave my Sundays free just to stay at home to spend some time with my folks. It's not that I dont want to come home for dinner on weekdays nowadays. It's that I cant, because I need to work. Because I need all these money to fulfil all my wants. All the wants that I cant get anyone else to help me with. It may not sound like you're blaming me, but to me, it does.

The time I spend at work is so much more than the time I get for myself. I dont even have the time to talk to my friends now. Whatever, I feel so damn lousy right now. Every thought that comes to my mind are negative thoughts. I guess this is just one of the low moments of my life. Kbye.