Self-pitying in process.
Watched YOG opening ceremony last night on teevee! The fireworks were good! But so sad I wasnt there. The fireworks on the day I went was damn cui can! Today they put like it's free!
Had a really great Saturday today, relaxing at home, not doing anything much. Been long since I have this kind of day. Slept at 8pm last night, and woke up at 12pm. Muhahahaas. (:
For the whole of this holiday I had, especially these few recent months when myself and most of my close friends are all working and leading our own lives, I looked back and realised how much we havent been catching up with each other. I have so much cooped up inside me that I no longer want to talk about them anymore. And suddenly, I feel lonely. I look at everyone and realise they have others. It's so sad.
And I also realised that it's true that when the trust between 2 persons are broken, you can no longer trust this person fully anymore. Everytime you talk, there's like a barrier being built up and your mind starts running and analyzing which sentence from this person is actually true. And everything begin to seem fake and superficial. It's like nothing is the same anymore.
It was when I look at how happy everyone is that I realised how unhappy I am.