Have you ever wondered how life would be for you if you were born differently? If you had successful parents who are rich, if you are an orphan, if you were born so poor you cant afford most of the things you have now? How contented would you then?

I think that everyone should be educated to be grateful of the things they have from young. In that way, they wouldnt take things for granted. Was watching this tv programme where they showed the lives of the orphans who lived in a developing country. They found joy in simple things in everyday life. The thing they want most is not money. It is love. And they were taught to be grateful for all they have. I think that sometimes if we count our blessings, we would be happier, we would find out that there are things that have always been there that made us happy and we never notice. We are constantly wanting things, constantly seeking more satisfaction from new things. They are never enough. The next time you feel like your life is not satisfying, be it due to any reasons, try counting your blessings.

I always value family time. I find it a pity that my siblings do not value family time. I would make sure that no matter how packed my week is, I will at least have one dinner together with my parents per week. Through dinner, I will ask them questions about life. About everything. Tell them about my life. But they are never my confidant. I dont like the idea of making them worry. Today, over dinner, I asked my dad, have I ever asked you when I was young why can you smoke? He said never. Weird, I thought I would. And my mum went on to say something I did instead. She told me that I once gave my dad a smoking is bad for health brochure. HAHAHAS! You might think why the sudden question. Like random right. But I've been thinking what do parents who smoke tell their kids when they ask what are you doing? Why can you do that? Can I try it too? Put yourself in that situation and you'll find that it's hard to answer those questions isnt it? You dont want your kid to learn from you, but you cant quit either. So how do you lead by example? Hahahas. Interesting.

Do many of you sometimes feel that when you want to confide in others, you will start to think that others wont understand the situation you're in, how you really are feeling? And then you just give up in talking to them and keep everything to yourself?

I've been feeling rather stressed about school work. In fact, it's the first time in my entire life that I've felt this kind of stress. When I dont understand something, I'd find the thought of 'why dont I understand this? why do people understand and I dont?' creeping into my mind. And the process of scolding myself comes in. I dont like the feeling of being so lost. Of not having any directions at all? There are many points when it came to tears creeping up. I cant help but be pissed with myself. I know I shouldnt be putting so much stress on myself. But it's something that's beyond control.

And then there are the many things that have become memories. The things that have changed. The things that you can only start to miss but can never get back again.

Okay, Im ending this post. It's getting depressing. Hahahas. Bye!