When hopes are crushed again and again. When suddenly you realize you are not anyone's priorities. When everyone has someone more important than you. When you just can't think of any positive thoughts. When no one even bother to ask. When you feel like you're so alone in this world.

So Ive been thinking, using the equity theory, my effort put in at work greatly surpasses the outcome i get. Hahahas. So at the end of the day, it will all boils down to monetary values. Why do we work? For the money isnt it? If you ask me if I enjoy going to work everyday, seriously, ask anyone, Im sure majority will ask you what do you think. Probably about only 0.01% enjoys their work. Im greatly not one of them. So I randomly mentioned about feeling that I am underpaid to my dad and he said, this is a starting job, a stepping stone to your future career. It's the experience that you gain that is priceless. Must more than the monetary value that you desire. Right now, it shouldnt be about the money, it should be about the experience. So what do all of you think?

Oh and he added, maybe one day you might meet a CEO of a company who is impressed by you and employs you. Hahahas, I guess that needs rather much luck. Hahahas.

Something else to share. On a day you feel down, think of the great few minutes or even seconds of the day you had, maybe you got a smile from a random stranger, maybe someone said thank you to you, maybe someone complimented you. A few great minutes or seconds here and there will add up to a beautiful day. So your day isnt that bad afterall. (:

Another compliment letter came in today. In the past 2 months I've had quite a number of it. It's really a morale boost at times when you feel like whatever you do is just not worth it. Perhaps these are the real returns. If I have the chance I would like to thank all these people who have took the effort to call in or write in to compliment me, to tell them how their words actually keep me going and continue serving others with my heart. Some I might remember and some I don't even do. But still, thank you.

Ah, it's 1am already and Im still right here.

Time passes really fast har! So quickly and it's a week past my birthday already. All celebrations had passed. I appreciate all the efforts all my lovely friends put in to make my day special. Thank you! Many of you, I've had in my life for almost a decade. Im thankful that we are still in touch and some of us have gotten even closer to each other than we'd been.

My life, it's still the usual, school and work with some minimum free time for fun and rest. Happy this way. (: But of course, I'd prefer it without the work. Hahas.

It's a month plus to my year end holiday and research hasnt been done! Much more to do! But definitely looking forward to it! (:

Here's a little something I'd like to share with everyone from a book I am reading. Appreciate the small things and moments in life. Things that money cant buy.

'Having more does not keep you from wanting more. And if you always want more - to be richer, more beautiful, more well known - you are missing the big picture, and I can tell you from experience, happiness will never come.'

Oh and on a side note, some words when said by others just turn out gross.

Would you prefer a closure or the little short moments of happiness now and then?

Okay, nothing else to talk about. Goodnight.