I don't know what to do anymore. It was supposed to be a motivation, it was supposed to be something to look forward to. Now I'm not sure I'm looking forward to it. I'm not sure what's going to happen. Things have changed so suddenly, so quickly I don't know how I react at all.
30 days.
Exactly one more month left. Are things going to change?
痛久了就会麻木了吗?真的好痛好痛.
It's like déjà vu again, except this time it's on a different person. What are you trying to show me? If this was going to happen, why gave me the strength to make that decision one month back? This is the first ever time I wish you'd not stayed for so long...