The year is coming to an end once again. Just 6 more days to go. They'd said doomsday was near, but we've gotten through it.Some might have wished that it was real, that it would let all the problems in our lives vanishes, but well, good or bad, we still have to live through them. Time is not up.

It's the time of the year where I think back on what's happened in this whole year, how's it been. Well, I could summarize this year into one word, bittersweet.

Work... has been good, with lots of kind souls helping me along the way, paving me to where I am today, to what I'll get next year. For the better or worse, no one knows yet. Let's just take everything as a learning opportunity. About my own performance at work, not very pleased with myself recently, making careless mistakes and not getting things done properly.

Studies... Results hasnt been what I've expected. Everyone may have told me that you're already much better than we are. That didnt matter. I came into year 2, choosing the mods that I thought I could score. But I didnt. Complacence or what, I'm not sure. Well, not sure if lesson has been learnt because now that I'm in year 3, with only 3 more mods to clear, I feel that I havent placed enough importance on my studies at all. No revision done at all, always dozing off in classes. Perhaps, it's time to reflect on this and get some action done on this.

Friends... This year, I'm glad I met up with friends I havent met for quite some time, some even years. Got closer to some, caught up on each others' lives. There's been close friends who I've thought are never going to come back into my life again, but I take it as a blessing to hear from them again. My few group of close friends, always feel lucky to have them in my life. Those I can always count on when I'm feeling low, or when I have joy to share. Do saw some who doesnt seem to want me in their lives anymore too. You know at some point, when I feel that I've done enough on my part, I'll not try anymore.

Family... Age is just catching up on the parents and I just hope for everyone to stay healthy. Hope that everyone will start to treasure family time more.

Love... As friends around me start to get into relationships, I start to feel lonelier sometimes. But well, let's hope for a better 2013. This one year, I've thought that things might be turning out good at the start of the year, made crazy decisions but didnt turn out the way I wanted it to be. During the mid-year, started to let go of things. Did experience the kind of can't help smiling feeling again in this year.

Myself... Took a plane ride on my own this year, and totally enjoyed it. Made a pact that I'm going to go to Europe in 2014. Let's hope it's going to happen. Been much of a couch potato this year, always wanting to stay home more than anything. Doing nothing other than watching dramas. Felt that my life has been kind of boring. As for my health, it hasnt been good late this year. Havent had the courage to go for a health check. The thing about health check is that you never know what's going to happen. People might say nothing is going to happen. But there is always a what if...

Every year, I'm sure everyone will wish for one thing, and that is for the coming year to be better. And the same goes for me. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

After all these while, I have let go. That very last straw. I should be angry, but I can't seem to be. I'd still wonder if we can talk like how we used to. You always shut yourself out from the world when things happen. I tried, knowing that it's all ended for you, to talk to you, to show my concern, but what I got was the fact that we could no longer hold a conversation at all.

But you know what, on this Christmas, I received those words from you, totally unexpected. And what I've been thinking for the whole of today was, hey you still remember my existence. That was enough to make my day. I could re-read those words again and again, they might mean nothing, but I do treasure them. It might take time, but I certainly hope that there will come a day where we can have a proper conversation together again, like how we used to.