The insecurities sets in, the negative thoughts couldn't stop flooding me. All I could think of is how many friends do I really have left? How many are going to be there when I need them to be? Or is it me not putting in the effort? Now that everyone is gng in different directions, what do we do?

The other day I had a meltdown at work. I guess majority of it came from the negative thoughts in me recently. I'm not like that, I can normally hold it. But that day, I just crashed. And I couldn't stop. What happened? Where do I go from here? Where do I find happiness? Guide me, someone. All I see is darkness at the end of the tunnel.